You were on a mission with the Avengers newest member, Bucky.
You weren't exactly thrilled to be working with the ex hydra agent. Stopping in a shitty motel for the night you groaned and threw your duffle bag on one of the single beds.
Lately you had been feeling...odd.
Things weren't adding up, maybe your paranoia was returning.
You sighed and sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing a spot on the back of your neck.
"Why do you keep doing that?" Bucky asked as you looked up.
"What?"
"You go quiet and rub your neck." He noted as you quickly stopped.
"Nothing, doesn't matter." You replied.
"I'm going to take a shower."
You sat on the edge of the bed, staring down at your hands.
Bucky eventually finished showering, coming out without a shirt and his hair a mess.
"Seriously, what the hell is going on with you?" He asked as you looked up.
"I don't know... Maybe I'm going crazy. I just have this feeling." You muttered standing up and starting to pace.
"Y/N, you're acting insane." He said as you stopped and looked at him.
"What happened when you first joined the team?" You asked as he looked at you in confusion.
"Well, Steve introduced me to the team. I got a room and...that's about it." He said as you bit the inside of your lip in thought.
"What about when you first joined? When they took you from Shield and to the tower. There's time missing, isn't there?" You said as he thought for a while.
"I guess... It was just a busy time, I probably forgot some things." He said as you began rubbing the back of your neck again.
"I need a knife." You muttered, opening your duffle and grabbing out your blade.
"I need you to make an incision in my neck." You said handing the blade to him.
He quickly took it and put it down.
"Alright, let's put the knife down and sit down. There we go." He said pushing you back to sit on the bed.
"You're acting a little...hostile, Y/N. Talk to me." He said kneeling in front of you as you rubbed at your neck again.
He gently reached up and pulled your hand away.
"Talk to me." He said softly.
"What if they planted a chip in me?" You whispered, Bucky looked at you in confusion.
"Who?" He asked, holding onto your hand.
"The team! We both come from bad backgrounds, what it they chipped us!" You shouted as he looked at you in concern.
"Y/N, you're having a breakdown. The team wouldn't do that to us." He said as you shook your head.
"You need to cut into my skin, okay? Just trust me!" You shouted as you got up and grabbed the knife again, Bucky quickly grabbed you, restraining your arms.
"Enough! Y/N, there isn't a chip in your neck, okay? You had one in your neck from Hydra but it was taken out, remember?" He asked as you stopped fighting and panted softly.
"What's happening to me?" You whispered as Bucky sighed but still held you.
"Steve warned me you get delusions and paranoia... Have you got medication?" He asked, slowly letting you go.
You turned around and looked at him.
"I have some with me... But, what if they just want me to take them to make me forget?" You whispered as Bucky looked at you, feeling sorry for you.
"I know it seems scary at the moment, nothing really makes sense. You just need to take some medication. There's no reason the team would need to implant a chip into you. You're a valuable member of the team, not a prisoner." He replied, trying to reason with you.
You bit your lip and looked around, thinking.
"If we were their prisoners would they send us both alone on a mission together?" He asked as you sighed and rubbed your eyes.
"Where's your medication?" He asked softly.
You pointed to your backpack and Bucky searched through it to find the bottle of pills.
He thoroughly read the bottle before getting one out and a glass of water.
"Here." He said handing it to you and practically stared at you without blinking until you took it.
After taking it you laid on the bed and sighed softly.
"Some hero, huh?" You grumbled as Bucky sat beside you.
"Y/N, we all have issues on the team. I think it's a prerequisite at this point." He joked making you chuckle softly.
You rolled over and started to run your finger over his metal hand.
He glanced down at you in shock, he wasn't used to someone finding comfort in his metal arm.
"I love being a hero... I love being on the team, but it just gets difficult. I feel so alone." You muttered, mindlessly tracing patterns onto his hand.
"I understand, but you don't have to do this alone. We can do this together, you can come to me whenever you're having...delusions, and I come to you when I have a bad dream or something. Good exchange?" He asked as you chuckled softly.
"Sounds like a good deal, Barnes." You muttered looking up at him.
"It's a deal then."
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Marvel Oneshots - Book 5
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