Fire Full Of Love

Part 33 - Turned to ash

It was a silent ride home, the dimness and gloominess of the road ahead made me feel lucky i was in a heated car. The only light was the red of the car brakes in-front of us.

My face lit up in scarlet of the car. My mind chattering away and a question on the tip of my tongue.

"Why.." Regretting what is about to come out my mouth because i know my Uncle is in no mind to talk to me yet.

"Why what?" He says in an angry tone but driving like nothing has happened tonight.

"Why does everyone hate me? Ever since that dinner." He knows which one because that was the last time i ate dinner with him too.

"You need to stop speaking and it will help a lot more situations. I'm surprised he listened, i hope you will next."

My mouth fell open, it didn't, but i felt as if it did. Confusion fuels in me but mostly rage. But the type of rage where you can't speak and i won't because that is what he wanted, i will give him that.

Everyone i seem to love finds a way out of my life, seems to hate me, seems to disappear. I hold so much love and i seem as if I'm unlovable.

I can't speak, i wouldn't, i would like to question more of what happened at dinner that night but i shouldn't, i wont. Maybe he is right. If i stop speaking it will just help out situations.

Me and my Uncle have got in a few arguments when he is actually home, big arguments too. His words stick like glue to me, post it notes in my brain. His words feel like a lighter to my skin, makes me burn up. This time it just felt as if i was turning to ash. The anger was bearable because it left me speechless. Maybe it would be better if i just didn't speak to him. My questions would never be answered anyway.

My eyes fell to the floor and didn't move the entire ride home until i felt the familiar bumps of the stone drive way. Before he even put the car in park i jumped out, he was about to speak to me but i didn't want to hear it. Walking to the door as fast as i can. As soon as i got to my bed room i shut my door locking it. It's not like he would come banging on my door asking for forgiveness. I had no need to lock it but i think i did just to feel more away from him, from everything.

My phone that was now dead i put onto charge.

I jumped in the shower putting the pressure a bit lower just incase i could hear a knock from my Uncle. Maybe even a small knock at my door. An apology?

There wasn't.

This time my heart didn't break because deep down i knew i was stupid to think he would do that.

My phone blowing up with texts. Bailee.

*Have you got home safe?* I smiled because i know i always have her.

Scrolling down my notifications to mentions of my name. Videos linked, comments and comments. That made my heart shatter, i felt it in my throat. I excepted it but really this soon, only an hour after? How sick can these people be?

I put my phone down. Tears finally spilling out, i couldn't hold back anymore. My pillow across my face because i wouldn't want to wake anyone up.

Half and hour goes by and i find myself on Gio's contact. I stare and stare and stare until i have to blink because of the strain on my eyes. They hurt, from the crying or trying not to cry again, i don't know but what i do know is i miss him, i feel guilty, i need him to tell me it'll be okay even if it won't. I don't even care if someone lies to me. I always want the truth but not now.

I was about to call him until a messaged filled my screen.

Gio's number?

__________________________________

Hi my angel's i am so sorry i have been ill recently but finally uploaded for you all!

I am so so so grateful for every single person who has took the time to read my book or even a chapter, thank you all so much!

Sorry for the short chapter but there is more to come!!

I have been updating some chapters throughout.