Fire Full Of Love

Part 18 - Cousin

(Anastasia's pov)

It's the weekend and that's when i try and regain my sleep. I sleep late and wake up late.
I don't exactly have a sleep schedule because i can never follow it. One night i might be in and the next i'm out drinking (probably throwing it back up) and partying.

As a new girl in a school people are interested in you. Where you are from. Your life. This makes you popular for a couple months as i didn't begin at the start of the school year it was just after everyone else started the next year up. Everybody knew everybody and i only recognised a couple faces. We've all changed. Grew up. It's scary thinking that, like how it would be the last time speaking to someone or texting them. Life moves on so quickly and you never even notice.

Life is sad and truthful and hurtful and the more you grow up the more you understand. Sadly sometimes young kids grow up in teenage bodies. And not physically but mentally which physically changes you aswell. I always got told i looked older for my age and acted years older, some girls envy that but i don't. I wish i could just be a little kid again.

I remember how i wanted to be
13 years old
14 years old
15 years old
16 years old
17 years old

But now i am 17 all i want to be is 10 again when life had a purpose. I don't even remember the purpose but it had one or two or three.

I can't even remember what life was like before his touch. The only thing i do remember was sitting in the shower scrubbing until my skin appeared red. My parents shouted at me for using all the hot water that night but that's all i could do to cope.

You can never remove the past so you just have to live on. Some days it's okay and you think you might start to heal. Other days you feel your on the brink of death and have to suffer in silence, a painful silence. That's when you know what the real world is like.

I love my parents and i miss them like crazy. I still have hope they are out there and come home, honestly i do but they hurt me because they could never understand my pain.

My parents fell in love at a young age, always had each other, childhood best friends. If my mum was there so was my dad. Kind of like me and Gio when we were younger.

I didn't realise but my body was sinking more and more into my bed. Maybe it was that empty feeling in my stomach? I don't know but i try to push all those thoughts to the back of my head where they are kept.

It's 1pm. I woke up at 1pm. I need lunch.

I throw on some black high tight shorts and a white Calvin Klein jumper (it was in the sale.)

I make my way downstairs to the kitchen and realise there is literally nothing to eat for lunch.

My stomach is growling in annoyance.

Help me.

I decide to grab my car keys and make my way to Starbucks.

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I decide i am not getting out my car.

I'm lazy.

I go round to the drive through.

"Hey what can i get ya!"

"Hi can i have a tomato and mozzarella on focaccia please."

"Yes, would you like anything else?"

"Can i also get a vanilla sweet cream cold brew?"

Absolutely! Is that it for your order?"

"Yes thank you."

I'm a vanilla kinda girl.

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After i'm done eating in my car i realise i'm bored and don't want to go home. I was going to text Gio but i remembered him telling me he was going to the gym today.

Gym boys. Yummy.

I decide i could just check if he's home anyway as there is nothing else i am going to do today. So i start trying to remember the route to his house.

I park up in his drive way. His car is there and lights are on so i'm guessing he's home.

I walk up to his door knocking.

I stand there for a minute.

Maybe he's in the shower?

The door open revealing a familiar looking girl. She's tall, skinny, dark brunette hair, looks a few years younger but last time i saw her it was only the side of her face. When Giovanni had his arm around her shoulder.

"Hey girl i've heard so much about you!"

Well i wasn't expecting that.

"Really? i've heard nothing about you."

It goes silent. Awkward silence.

"So can i come in, is Giovanni here?"

"Yes but my cousin is in the shower."

COUSIN? cousin. Oh.

"Oh your his cousin."

"Yeah although i'm three years younger he still has to babysit me sometimes. My mums a bit overprotective and doesn't trust me."

I laugh while walking inside. I feel stupid.

"Did you want a drink?" She asks me.

God she's so nice i feel horrible.

"No it's okay, thank you."

That's when Gio comes down in just grey joggers and no top."

"Put on a top!" His cousin yells.

Please don't put on a top.

"What are you doing here?"

Um what am i doing here?

"Bailee is throwing a party tomorrow i just wanted to tell you incase you wanted to come with me."

"You could of texted me?" He laughs.

"I forgot i had a phone."

I was holding it in my hand.

"I'll be there."

"Great."