Fire Full Of Love

Part 32 - So many questions?

Anastasia's pov:

I told him to leave, told him right to his face with tears filling up my eyes. I don't know if i was crying because of what happened or because of how he looked at me. Guilt trailed through my body, ran through my veins, ate away at me.

Why did he act like i was nothing to him? Then act like i was everything? He saved my life when i didn't want to be saved, i wanted the water to engulf me, mainly from the embarrassment.

Nothing adds up and this is not a moment i want to be thinking about. Not here, not now.

Giovanni did what i said and left, stormed off through the crowd of people surrounding me pushing past every single one of them, nearly knocking over a few. And i watched as he did so, i felt the regret in my heart, i felt my heart drop to my stomach from the enormous weight the guilt held.

The reality is, i didn't want him to leave, actually that was the complete opposite. I wanted to get up and push him asking, shouting, screaming at him why, why would he leave me like that when i invited him round for dinner? Why did he not text me back? Why did he save me? He should have left me in that water. I wanted to push my hands into his chest for him to then wrap his around me telling me i'd be okay, because he is the only one i believe when those words are said. If he tells me i'll be okay i believe it, i never have before.

When we were younger i fell off my bike and he ran over. Gio took my hands and helped me up. Blood on my knees and a blurred vision trying not to cry in-front of the boy i have a crush on. Instead of him laughing he told me i'd be okay, rushed me into his house and took a piece of kitchen roll under the icy tap of water softly placing it on my now crimson coloured knees, the blood already dried a bit. He was right, i was okay. I know the situation right here is very different but his words still feel the same to me.

Bailee still holding me, i've been there for five minutes in her arms shivering since Giovanni left even when it has felt like hours.

"What are you doing surround her? This party is finished, all of you can leave now" Quinn yelled at them all, that was the first time i had heard him shout and it was quite scary, i hope he never does that again. They all listened filing out. Silence fell, actually it was silent when everyone was leaving because of Quinn, i can't tell if they were actually scared of about to laugh.

Surely someone videoed this, probably that idiot that threw me, his friends must of had there phones out. I won't go on my phone for a good week (that is a lie, nothing can stop me).

I didn't realise but Quinn must of called my Uncle, i wouldn't say he is protective but he did come running onto the boat looking furious.

Lord i am so sorry for the past things i have done and drunk tonight please save me.. amen.

I look up at him and he looks down at me. I can't speak. My teeth chattering.

His face looks very angry so i will just take him shouting at me, i do deserve it after all.

"Are you okay?" He sighs out like this is some normal thing. I nod my head too tired to speak. I thought that was about to go very differently.

He grabs my hand lifting me up and i take it. I follow him back to his car. I know he's annoyed but he isn't saying anything. I guess that will be tomorrow mornings drama.

"I'm sorry." I say sincerely because i shouldn't have come, i was upset even before i walked in and i thought i could drink the pain away, i thought when i looked at Gio the pain would disappear but i was wrong. That's what i did when my Mum and Dad disappeared, i just drunk and drunk. My uncle picked me up from most of those house parties and got it shut down very quickly, everyone hated me for a week so i had to act sick and get out of school.

Before i get in the passenger side of my Uncles car, in the distance before coming down the slightly sandy hill, i can see a cars headlights blinding but i can make out the figure. Gio. What is he still doing here? I can see the smoke from the cigarette he's smoking.

"Get in" My uncle shouts already in the drivers seat. So i quickly do.

"What boy made you go, made you drink? Who pushed you in the water, is it that boy who came round for dinner?" My Uncle weirdly questioned, he had hatred in his voice. That question seemed to roll off his tongue like he was thinking it over and over.

"No he didn't make me go, Bailee took me. I haven't spoke to him since he came round. He was the one that saved me." I exclaimed.

"So he was there." My uncle scoffed. What was that about i thought he enjoyed the time Gio spend with him, Gio was kind. Until he disappeared after dinner.

Why is everyone acting strange? What is happening?