The Boot Shiner (Destiny x Male Reader)

Chapter 35: The Present

JUST A SHORT TIME WITH MOX

WHAT HAS SHE GOTTEN INTO?

It's been six months since Y/N's passing and I just can't move on from it. Every time a Festival of the Lost is coming or a Dawning festival is coming, I'm going to be inevitably reminded that Y/N will no longer be around. Even if I didn't love him... even if we never shared... our hearts... it would still feel unreal. There is no doubt that Serenity and Chase feel the same way, but it's good that we can mourn together.

They are coping in their own ways, but for the most part, but most notably, they darken their appearances. As Chase grows more cold, solid, perhaps darker, her makeup follows. Serenity on the other hand has painted her golden stripe and star to a brooding black. They both did this to themselves... knowing... Y/N wouldn't want them to change. He wouldn't want me to change, so... I didn't.

Perhaps they are trying to forget, get over it even, unlike I am. Like all things, I make the mistake of staying attached. As much as I used to declare how guardians shouldn't be too attached to things, to keep the idea in the forefront of their minds that all they have to worry about is saving our Last City... I AM A HUGE HYPOCRITE. My mind always splits in two over this and it's been taking a toll on me. I just wish he was here to help me out. I needed him just as much as he needed me for therapy.

His only chance of ever coming back would be to somehow resurrect him, via a ghost most likely. If that happens, I am not only going to be ecstatic, but also more miserable than anything and anyone could ever imagine. He would be brought back with no memories, but with a gift of light that he won't understand. I would be tortured every day that I see him into whatever guardian that it seems to make him.

I hear the sliding door open at the front of our quarters. It must be Serenity since she was the only one that was out. Her confidence has improved and she says what she wants to say now. Still shy, but at least she can get it out. Chase on the other hand... She's becoming like me, and it scares me so.

Mox: Serenity, what did you have to do?

Serenity: Groceries... I-I went and got some to last us the week.

Mox: You ever realize that... we don't really have to eat?

Serenity: It feels better when we do though.

Mox: True. I won't argue that I'm less grumpy. Though... When am I ever not grumpy?

Serenity: At least you're aware of what Chase calls your "grumps".

Mox: Well... I don't know.

Serenity: You were thinking about him again, weren't you?

Mox: You're right... I was... I feel like a chunk of me left when he did...

Serenity: Y-yeah but... l-least we got each other! Seems the best part about the harem thing is that we can all mourn him together... We'll heal and rebound as one big fireteam. Speaking of... have you seen Chase?

Mox: She didn't tell me where she was going, only that she was going somewhere.

Serenity: That's unlike her.

Mox: Over the past couple of months, that's probably closer to the old Chase. Gatekeeping, being a child, but she was resilient.

Serenity: We need her back here...

Mox: For what?

Serenity: Just... because... I want her back here just to see how she's doing. She's becoming you and that's what has me concerned!

Mox: What do you mean by that?

Serenity: Dark, quiet, sort of miserable like a moody teen going through a phase... Violent, very violent. Did you go on a scouting mission with her recently?