Chapter 18

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*Patrick's P.O.V.*

"Patrick! We need to talk as a group. We need to fix this," Andy insisted.

I haven't been seeing them for days and I know things aren't alright. They announced the truth it to the public and it almost broke the fandom again, but then made it stronger afterward. They saw Chase's confidence and willpower as a very fascinating thing. They accepted him...no...her no matter what.

"We can never fix this, Andy," I said, "Let's just get this thing over with,"

We drove towards the recording studio where the others are already waiting. The moment I entered I heard laughing, I was afraid this will happen. The guys have already accepted and forgiven her and I was left out hating her. Andy and I entered the room and they all became silent.

I didn't want to look at Chase, but my eyes landed on her. At first, I thought it was Winona. She weirdly looked like her as if they were twins at first look. She was too familiar to me too and then suddenly it hit me.

"You're Chasity." I murmured. She stood up and was about to walk to me, but I gestured her to stop. "T-that doesn't change anything," I said.

We all sat around the room while the silence dominated again for a while.

"I'm really sorry. I wasn't...it wasn't supposed to reach here. I mean to make it look like I took advantage of you all, that was never my intention. I only joined this band to help my brother pay our family's debts and that was supposed to be it. I said to myself that after paying all those, I'm going. But I found myself staying because of you guys, most especially Patrick. I was about to leave the day you asked me to go with you Patrick and I decided not to because I realized I wasn't ready to leave yet." She said. I wasn't looking at her, I don't want to look at her.

"Even with those words, you can't make me pity you. It's still not changing anything." I said coldly.

"Patrick!" Pete shouted at me.

"What? She fucking lied to us...no matter what she says she still used us." I said back to them.

"But you forgave Winona quickly when she came back to you?!" Joe said with a sarcastic tone.

"That's why I'm done forgiving that easily," I said as I look at Chasity who's been quietly sitting there.

"Hey, you guys, please. You don't have to be like that. I'll leave if that's what he wants."

"Good. See what you're doing to us?!" I shouted at her and I never knew that where did that came from. She looked at me and I know my words are really hurting her.

"Patrick, I swear to god if you say something like that again I'm going to staple your mouth," Pete said to me and I rolled my eyes at him.

"Let's vote then. Overcast Kids already accepted her and we did too. We all want her to stay as our drummer and let's do this the formal way - voting. Who here is in favor of Chasity staying as our drummer?" Andy said calmly and I grunted loudly.

I don't want her to stay...I know if wouldn't be good for her and for me. It's not that I don't want to be with her again, I just want to forget and I can't do that if she's around.

Before I knew it, Pete, Joe and Andy's hands are all in the air...meaning I have to accept my defeat.

"I don't know what this girl had done to you...but I'm sure as hell, it won't work for me. My decision of leaving you out of this band is final. You can't do anything to change that. To me,...you're no one."

Why am I so angry at her? And the more I stare at her, the more I want to hurt her with my words. The way she looks like Winona isn't helping too, I wanted to say sorry, but my pride is pulling me up. I have never been so confused with my feelings in my entire life and maybe finding out that the reason behind that confusion is just a lie...made me like this. I'm speaking like a monster.

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*Chasity's P.O.V.*

*Three months later*

Patrick's harsh words never left my ears. It was so frustrating and painful.

It's been three months since the day they found out that I'm a girl, the others have fully accepted me, but Patrick's decision of forgetting me never changed. We haven't talked that much since.

Patrick only talks to me if it is about work, but other than that we're like strangers to each other. Whenever he's ordering me to do something, his tone is still angry, like a master ordering his slave. Well, I wasn't really fighting back. I was just letting him do what he wants and I already got used to his mean ways. But still, my feelings for the guy is still as strong as before.

"Chase! You're messing up the song!" Patrick shouted at me.

I realized we're inside the Live Room in our recording studio, rehearsing because we'll be on tour again. Everyone is pressured and stressed, but Patrick was the most affected one to this.

"Yow, dude. Chill out." Joe said to him.

"Told you guys, she should just leave." He murmured under his breath and I clearly heard it all.

"Why don't you just tell it to in front of my face, Patrick? Instead of murmuring there, but I'm sure you're really speaking loudly so I can hear it." I said. My temper wasn't really helping me today and I might have shocked the others by speaking back to Patrick.

"You should have just left." Patrick looked at me straight, then smirked sarcastically after. "There. Happy?" he asked.

I was stunned again, I was left staring straight at him. I wanted to explode, I wanted to ask him why, but I know Patrick's doing this for me to leave and I'm not going anywhere else, yet. I just let out a heavy sigh while looking at him.

"Since that day I never knew the meaning of happiness, Patrick." I murmured and he backed off.

"Okay, guy. Quit it...Brendon and the others are,

"HELLO!!" suddenly the door to the recording studio opened and the guys from Panic! At the Disco entered.

It was a good thing that they will be touring with us, meaning I will have a lot of company this time and I don't need to be stuck with Patrick for a long time. The guy will kill me for sure.

"Finally! I got to meet the famous...Chase." Brendon said and he walked to me. I was also a big fan of the guy and I was left star-struck there. He put his arms around my shoulders which made me blush. "I heard some of the mash-up you've uploaded on YouTube and I'm sure we'll both have a good time on this tour," he said excitedly to me and my mood was immediately changed.

I fist bumped with him and we began talking, I need to relax and I need to forget about things. I want my life to continue and I shouldn't let Patrick ruin it for me. I just wish he'll stop hating me.

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