Always Been My Greatest

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Always Been My Greatest 16

                                      

"What.....Are you kissing each other?"

Mabilis ang tulak ko sa dibdib ni Tristan. His lips parted, still in shock. I knew he heard my sister's voice but his gaze remains on me.

Wala na akong panahon para kiligin sa paraan ng pagtitig niya at agad akong lumabas ng sasakyan para daluhan ang kapatid kong gulat na gulat.

"Xy—"

"You kissed each other," she stated.

I reached her arms but she pulled it away. She step backward, not giving me an access to touch her. Nawala ang tingin niya at nalipat sa taong nasa likod ko. Nakalabas na pala siya ng sasakyan.

"Siya ba? Si Kuya ba, huh? Si Kuya ba ang nagugustuhan mo kaya hindi mo magawang gustuhin ako?"

Walang tao sa labas kaya hindi ko kailangang mangamba sa kahihiyan ngunit takot akong marinig ng pamilya ko. I don't want them to get the wrong idea.

I don't have any relationship with this Saavedra. He isn't my boyfriend and he wouldn't be.

"Xy...."

My sister looks at me with a disappointed look. She looks disgusted and mad. "Kaya pala hindi ako magustuhan dahil sa'yo." She then look at Tristan. "And you can't like me back because you like dick all along!"

"Xyra, your words." I warned her.

I know what she's feeling right now. I know she's disgusted and disappointed but that didn't give her the right to mock someone's sexuality. Hindi niya direktang sinabi pero alam kong kung hindi ko pipigilan ay doon din ang punta ng usapang ito.

She could yell and throw her hands on us because somehow she felt betrayed but not to the point where she would bring up Tristan's sexuality.

She didn't even got scared and instead, she smirk and looks at me, not believing what I have said.

"Why? Natamaan ka rin ba because just like your gay lover, you also like dick? Akala ko pa naman protective ka lang dahil ayaw mo akong masaktan, 'yon pala nagseselos ka na."

Sa totoo lang, gusto ko nang sumabog sa galit sa kung paano ako pagsalitaan ng kapatid ko pero kahit anong galit ko, hindi ko magagawang ipadampi ang kamay ko rito.

She's too precious—they're too precious, sila ni Kia. Kahit gaano kasakit ang salitang bitiwan nito, hindi ko magagawang saktan sila ng pisikal. Alam kong walang karapatan ito kung magalit pero naiintindihan ko kung anong nararamdaman niya ngayon.

She felt betrayed by her own brother. Kung nalaman niya lang sana sa ibang paraan, iyong maayos at hindi sa paraang ganito na nakabibigla kung saan siya mismo ang nakakita, baka naging maayos ang lahat.

Pero sa kabilang banda, hindi ko rin naman maaamin sa kaniya dahil wala akong dapat aminin. I'm not with Tristan. He may like me but I'm not reciprocating his feelings.

Hindi naman kami magkarelasyon at lalong wala akong balak makipagrelasyon. So, what should I say? That I may not like this guy but I wanted him to fuck me? That I want him to be my fuck buddy?

Hell no!

"I like you, Kurt! I really like you a lot. But you know what? Matatanggap ko naman kung hindi mo ako gusto lalo kung sinabi mo lang ang totoo at ipinagtapat na kapatid ko pala ang tipo mo."

Nakayuko lang doon si Tristan, walang gustong sabihin sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. "I informed you that I like someone else," sagot nito.

"But you didn't informed me that it was my brother that you like! I feel betrayed, Kurt! Kuya ko pa talaga! Kuya ko!"