Ghost Oneshots /// Ships (pt.1)

🔞 Sodo x transmasc!Rain - Insecurities

Dom: Sodo
Sub: Rain

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Rain's chest was still heaving, skin glistening with sweat and his pupils blown wide. He lay on the bed, sprawled out and naked on top of the wrinkled sheets. His gaze slowly shifted away from the ceiling, and went to Sodo who was still busy with collecting his clothes from the floor. They tended to be a little hasty when they were about to have sex, and today had been no difference. With a soft wince, Rain sat up into a criss-legged sitting position. He grabbed a pillow and threw it in Sodo's direction, "really, no post-sex snuggles? Tragic. I feel so used" he whined with a soft, light hearted pout. The fire ghoul's gaze snapped up as the pillow hit him, settling on the form of Rain's naked body. He hesitated - his eyes showing the clear wish to stay, cuddle and comfort - but he had places to be. 

"Sorry, droplet, Swiss needs something from me too. Guess I am in high demand tonight." He paused, then chuckled smugly, "but I'm free tomorrow night." Rain rolled his eyes fondly. Typical Sodo - charming, hot, emotionally unavailable, and somehow still the one person Rain couldn't help falling for. He wasn't bitter. Just... maybe a little in love and very good at pretending he wasn't. The water ghoul knew Dew good enough to know he wasn't really one for commitment and all that came with it. He didn't like being bound to someone like that - to think he wasn't free to do whatever he wanted. Rain's expression softened and he nodded, "tomorrow night it is then."

Silence settled as Sodo put his last bits of clothes on, combing his fingers through his hair to get at least a few of the tangled knots out. Rain found himself watching with a fond, dreamy smile, unable to hide it. He was like a lovesick puppy sometimes, and yet Sodo seemed to be awfully oblivious. As the fire ghoul looked up, he still wore one of his stupid, signature grins. He bowed, making Rain giggle on the bed, "your service has been... deeply appreciated." Rain just rolled his eyes, holding back from throwing another pillow. Instead he just waved him off, "yeah, yeah. Go be Swiss' little toy. I'll be here, emotionally repressed and fabulous." Sodo glanced up, those fiery orange eyes slightly more gentle than before. There was a tinge of guilt and worry, but Rain refused to see it in order to not fall even more for him.

It had taken a long time for Rain to 'recover' from their little encounter. He would've loved to just stay in his room all night, cuddled up in the soft duvet and binge watching his favorite series - for the fourth time already. But hunger eventually managed to get him out of bed and into some oversized, comfy clothes. As he left his room to pad down the hallway to the common room and kitchen area, he suddenly hesitated as he heard noises coming out of Swiss' room. He knew very well that it was none of his business, and that he should just walk past, pay it no attention, but he couldn't help himself. And either way - it didn't seem like either Swiss or Sodo tried to keep any noises down. Moans, whimpers and gasps were echoing pretty loudly through the corridor.

The sounds shouldn't have hit him like they did - but they did. Rain froze mid-step, something bitter churning in his stomach. He told himself to keep walking, to not press his ear to the door to listen more closely. But even if he did... his awfully imaginative brain could picture it all either way, and it was already busy playing out every little detail. Moans. Gasps. Sodo's voice - lower and raspier than when he was with Rain. Was that because it was better with Swiss? More satisfying? Was it because Swiss had something Rain didn't? The thought hit him like a slap, his face draining from color. Of course Dew liked dick - most ghouls did, right? It was biology or some shit. Ghouls were into both genders. But what if all the times Sodo had been with Rain, he'd just been pretending to enjoy it?

What if the cuddles after - as rare as they were - had only ever been a courtesy? Lucifer, maybe he had been selfish, thinking this could be something that it obviously wasn't. How stupid and naive of him. And maybe... just maybe Dew had been in a rush earlier because it hadn't been good enough. Because he hadn't been good enough. Not tight enough, not soft enough - fuck, not dick-having enough. Who was he kidding? Sodo was probably into cocks, and Rain only had to offer a pussy. What did he think, falling for someone he couldn't even make happy with what his anatomy gave him? He wished his oversized clothes could just swallow him whole, so he wouldn't have to deal with any more of this shit. But since that wasn't possible, Rain went straight back to his room instead.