Malsun protecting Soonja (Yeonbin) / (말순, 순자를 지킬거야)

Extra l (Part 05)

Soobin reached his room, panting from all the running. The madness he saw in Yeonjun's eyes was unbelievable. He had never seen him like this. It's as if he was possessed and turned into a real bloodthirsty monster. He felt how fast his heart was beating. His shirt was damped from his sweat as he kept gasping. Although he knew Yeonjun would never hurt him, he couldn't but got scared.

The moment when Yeonjun crushed a guy with his paw kept floating in front of his eyes. He trembled with horror. He shook his head, but couldn't get himself free from the terror.

He locked the door from inside and then slumped on the floor as if there was no strength left in his body. This wasn't him. This can't be! Yeonjun, whom he nearly gave his heart to, is a gentle, kind man. He is not any killer. He can't be. Soobin's eyes got full of tears as he kept thinking.

At that time, a knock on his door broke his chain of thoughts. He knew who it was. He hurriedly wiped his tears, sniffling hard, he tried to act calm. But, he didn't dare to open the door. He sat still, holding on his knees, leaning against the door.

"S-soobin! I know you're there. Can y-you please open the door? Please? Won't you listen to me?" Yeonjun's voice cracked and was gentler than ever.

But, Soobin kept quiet. He didn't know how he should react, how he should reply. His mind went blank. He couldn't think of anything. He just sat there like a statue.

"I know you're hearing me. And I know you'll hate me once you see me like this. But, I don't know. I don't know what I should do. To... to keep you all by myself. And... to protect you. Those people... they don't want to save you. They just want to use you, to... enslave you." Yeonjun's voice slowly reduced. He tried his best to hold his tears back, but it was of no use. His eyes brimmed with tears. The lumps on his throat made it hard for him to talk.

But, he didn't stop. He knew if he didn't tell him, he'd always bury them inside his mind forever.

"Hearing their filthy plans, I couldn't help myself. I... k-killed them. But, trust me! I never killed anyone before. Now, I just couldn't restrict myself. I can bear anything, everything! But, I can never endure your pain. This is the only reason... the reason I've... turned into a monster." Yeonjun wept as he couldn't hold his tears back.

Inside, Soobin pressed his mouth, shocked and stunned. How could this be? So, he's the one who made him like this? But, he never told him to slaughter those people. And he never knew those people who came to 'save' him were his actual danger. And all this time, Yeonjun was just trying to protect him. Soobin's eyes darted around, trying to find a valid reason to not blame himself.

"Soobin! Please don't be like this. I'll do anything you'd tell me to do. Just please! Don't avoid me. Don't be mad at me. Don't hate me. Although I know I am despicable. I am worthy of nothing but your hatred, terrors. What can I do? I li-" before Yeonjun finished his words, Soobin opened the door hurriedly.

"Don't utter a word further!" Soobin said in a loud voice as if scolding. His head was bowed and his eyes were hidden beneath his black and shiny bangs. But, it was clear that he was annoyed. Yeonjun was sitting on the floor. He looked above, giving a failed attempt to read Soobin's expression. He thought Soobin was hating everything.

After the day he nearly forced himself on Soobin, he knew this day was coming. And he was trying his best to prepare himself to let go of this boy. Still, he wasn't ready. He can't even think of a day without seeing him. Yeonjun stood up, reached his hand towards Soobin, but was afraid he wouldn't let him touch. Yeonjun swallowed hard, tears streamed down from his eyes as he retreated.

"You're not..." Soobin's voice was low as if he was whispering. Then he raised his head, stared at Yeonjun's eyes. His cold gaze made him more scared, more guilty. Yeonjun gasped, glancing at Soobin, then he lowered his sight again. He knew what Soobin was gonna say. But before he even blurted out, it hurt so much. Even the injury didn't hurt him as much as it did.