Malsun protecting Soonja (Yeonbin) / (말순, 순자를 지킬거야)

Chapter 48

Soobin stood frozen, astounded, unable to move until he felt the peck on his lips. With all of his strength, he shoved the guy away, causing him to crash on the ground. After slamming the door, he bolted to the washroom. The revulsion was so intense that he wished he could cut off his own lips. His hands were trembling so violently that he was struggling to turn on the tap. He pressed down hard on the liquid soap bottle, pumping out copious amounts and scrubbing his lips and face with an almost brutal force. He washed his entire face, rubbing with his full might until his skin turned red and raw. Still, he wasn't satisfied. He kept scrubbing the lower part of his face harder and faster. When he looked into the mirror, he saw only helplessness staring back at him. While fighting back tears, a lump formed in his throat. He raised his hand, watching them shaking uncontrollably. The self-loathing feeling came back to him as he didn't want to be afraid and fought desperately to stop trembling.

He looked back into the mirror and started breathing heavily. The more he was looking at himself, the more he was hating everything. The urge he felt to destroy everything, made him go furious. Everything was going smoothly. He should've seen it coming. He shouldn't have been greedy. To live a normal life, to enjoy when someone gives him hope. To see the glimpse of the light into his dark world. He shouldn't have. Feeling uncontrollable, he screamed at the top of his lungs and smacked in the mirror with his full strength and made it shattered. Blood came out from his fist as he got several cuts from the broken glass. Suddenly, he calmed down and retreated to his room. He sank to the floor while tears streaming down his face. Though he was alone in the room, he buried his face in his knees, clutching them tightly.

Time went by and he slowly calmed down. But he couldn't forget the filthy touch on his lips. He rushed to the washroom again and threw up though nothing came out except for liquids. His stomach was empty as he didn't get the chance to eat. Still, he felt the urge to throw up more. While making the strange and loud noises, he became weaker.

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In the long hallway of the hospital, a guy was sitting on the corner of a bench alone. His face was full of tension. He hid his face inside his palms as if he just finished praying. He sighed and leaned back onto the wall. The hospital's lights were very dim as it was nighttime. There were no other people waiting and he was left alone. He stood up and went towards the room where his wife was laid down. He looked at his wife through the window and sighed again.

"Dad! Here's some food to dine on." Yeonjun came towards him and showed him a food bag. He was talking with a very serious tone. He showed another bag and said again,

"And I also bought some fruits in case mom woke up and felt hungry. And you know you're stinking, so I bought some new clothes for you as well." Saying all this, he gave all of the bags except a small one to him. While taking the bag, he gave a dry smile to Yeonjun.

"Don't worry dad! Doctor said she'd be fine. She just needs a small surgery and I know she's very strong. I bet she's stronger than you. Oh! Do you wanna go home and rest? You can come to my house as it's closer from here." Yeonjun asked while checking the medicines he just bought whether any of them were missing from the prescription.

"I'll stay here tonight as well so you can go and get some rest." Yeonjun said in a lower voice as he was busy checking the meds.

"No, I'll stay beside her today. I know you work hard everyday and you didn't get any rest for these two days. So, you should go ahead. And thanks! I know she's strong and she'd be fine. It's just...I feel useless. I couldn't be a good husband, nor a good dad. I'm so sorry. Can you please forgive me for whatever I did to you? Your mom was begging me so hard these days to see you once. But, I didn't let her. What if...." He stopped and teared up.