My Serendipity

24: Regrets

Alaia's pov:

I am in the middle of reading a book when our doorbell rang, i am sure that this is not Sia. she's with Rei right now, at hindi naman siya nagd-doorbell.

I stood up to check who rang the doorbell. When I opened the gate, I saw Koby, standing tall, smiling at me like nothing ever happened.

I froze.

How the fuck did he know where we lived?

Why is he here?

My mind spiraled, overthinking every possibility. I didn't smile back. Instead, I glared at him.

"Why are you here?" I asked coldly.

As if he didn't hear a word I said, he suddenly pulled me into a hug. My eyes widened in pure shock and rising anger. I shoved him off me hard.

"Don't fucking hug me," I snapped. "I clearly told you we're over, Koby. So fuck off."

I couldn't hold back the rage any longer. If Sia sees this, she'll get the wrong idea, and that's the last thing I want.

"I know everything now," he said, his voice trembling with something between desperation and delusion. "You were just forced to marry that woman, hon. Please, come back to me. Siya lang naman ang dahilan kung bakit mo ako hiniwalayan, 'di ba?"

His words made my blood boil.

"I don't want you back," I said through clenched teeth. "stop bothering me. The only thing I can offer you is friendship. Nothing more. Nothing less. Now leave."

My voice was firm, clear. I wanted him to feel how much I hated seeing him like this, I hated this side of him.

But it's like he didn't heard me. He grabbed my hand and put an envelope into it.

"Alam kong ako ang mahal mo," he whispered. "Hindi ako susuko, Aia. I'll make you realize I'm better than her."

Then he smiled at me, and hugged me again. I tried to push him off, but he clung to me tightly, refusing to let go.

Goddamn it. We're starting to draw attention.

I shoved him again, this time with every strength I had. "Let go of me!" I hissed, turning away and heading back inside.

And just before I slammed the door shut, I heard him:

"Divorce her... and marry me."

pumasok ako sa kwarto ko at itinago ang envelope na binigay niya sa akin, hindi kona ito inabala pang buksan dahil wala naman itong kwenta. what he did earlier made me question my life decisions, what did I even liked about him. Gosh, that man was starting to annoy me!

pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko na hindi siya saktan. after all, may pinagsamahan pa rin naman kami.

I know deep in my heart, I love Sia. That's the truth. There's no doubt about it.

But somehow, I still couldn't bring myself to tell Koby that directly. Not in the way he needed to hear it. The guilt was holding me back, wrapping itself around my throat, stopping the words from coming out.

Maybe because I left him so suddenly, without a proper goodbye, without even explaining why. One day I was his, and the next, I was gone.

I know it wasn't fair.