Chapter 1
Rachel's pov
My phone rings and I am so happy to see who is calling. Finn. My one true love. My wonderful boyfriend.
I have had a rough few days with my dads on business trips and all, I have been so lonely lately. I press accept on my smart phone.Finn: Hey Rach
Rachel: Hey Finny!! I've missed you so much!!
Finn: I've missed you too. Do you think we could talk?
Rachel: ok, but what's wrong?
Finn: nothing's wrong we just need to talk, ok? I will be there in 10 minutes
Rachel: bye, love you
Finn: bye *hangs up*Finns pov
Rachel: bye, love you
Finn: bye *hangs up*I feel bad. I always tell her that I love her, but I don't anymore. I loved her before, but I haven't loved her for a while now. I know what your thinking, I'm a jerk. You might be right, but I still care for her. I just don't want to lie to her.
I drive to Rachel's
I get there and knock on the door. She opens it, great...
Rachel's pov
I answer the door and it's Finn!
I run to him and give him a great big hug, smiling up at him I press my head to his chest. After a few minutes He pushes me back, away from him, my smile fades.
Finns pov
Rachel: what's wrong?
Finn:I have been meaning to tell you this an-
She cuts me off
Rachel:did you cheat on me?? She says as tears start to form in her eyes
Finn:of course not, I would never.... But I need to tell you something else.
Rachel:what is it Finn? You can tell me anything.
Finn: I think we should take a break. I have been feeli-
She cuts me off again
Rachel: what??
Her voice trembles.
Rachel: I have given all myself to you... I-I can't believe this. I thought you loved me...
She say in a cracked voice, with tears dropping down her face every second.
Finn: I understand how much you love me but I don't feel that way anymo-
Once again she cuts me off, but instead of talking she slaps me, hard. I rub my cheek, trying to rid the pain.
Rachel: get out of my house.
Finn: Rach wait
Rachel: you don't get to call me that anymore.
Rachel sobs
Rachel: get the fuck out of my house
I turn around and start walking towards the door. But I was walking too slow for Rachel's taste. She opens the door and pushes me out. She slams the door right behind me.I walk to my car and turn on the gas, getting ready to leave. What have I just done to this poor girl?
Rachel's pov
I slam the door behind him. My back in now leaned against the front door and I'm sobbing. I can't believe he would hurt me like this. I thought he loved me.
I run to the bathroom still crying, and look through the cabinets. I find what I'm looking for: razor blades. I go to the sink and look at myself in the mirror, I see my ugly self with that big beak of mine that people call a nose crying. I grab a blade and think of 6 reasons why I should hurt myself, because I have 6 blades.
1)I'm an untalented loser
I cut myself and scream
2)I'm ugly
I cut, and scream even louder
3)I have no friends
I cut and scream
4)my boyfriend left me for a hot cheerleader whose a whore
I sob as I say that, and I grab the 4th razor, I am about to cut myself again when I hear a door close. I look around once, then twice and see that Finn is staring at me with tears in his eyes.Finns pov
Once I get in the car I remember that I left my varsity jacket inside. I walk to the front door and open it. I grab my jacket which is on the couch, but don't head to the front door. I hear sobs and screaming coming from a bathroom so I walk to the bathroom with the door open and see Rachel crying. But that's not all, I see her with 3 cuts on her arm and blood all over herself and the bathroom.
Rachel:4)my boyfriend left me for a hot cheerleader that's a whore
Finn:stop!
I say in between sob
She looks at me with tears in my eyes, but she doesn't listen
Rachel:4)my boyfriend left me for a hot cheerleader thats a whore(she repeats)
She digs the razor down in her skin, blood oozes out and she falls to the floor.I run to her and try to wake her up.
"Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up!"
"Rachel please, I never meant to hurt you like this. I don't want to be responsible for your death."I pick up Rachel and carry her bridal style way and sit her down in the truck. I put her seatbelt on and I drive off with her to the hospital.
I hope you guys enjoyed this first chapter. Don't worry, I know it's really sad. I was close to crying as I was writing this. Also I do not own the characters from glee. *Do not try this at home please*
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FanfictionThis is a story about Finn and Rachel's relationship, and how Finn can't make up his mind about loving her. Rachel is always confused on what Finns feelings are for her. She doesn't understand why Finn is dating Quinn when herself and Finn are obv...