I can't do this anymore

The truth

Chapter 2
Finns pov

I walk into Rachel's room, and the first thing I notice are all of the I.v's sticking out of her arms. She looked so miserable when she sleeps now. And yes I have seen her sleep before, we have had sex together. Anyways, I am getting off topic. Even if she does look beautiful, i can't mention it because I broke up with her. I never meant to hurt her like this, I never thought she would hurt herself because of me. I look down at my feet knowing she did this because of me. I look back up at her and she her eyes slowly open.

Rachel: wh-where am I?
Finn: we're at the hospital
I walk up to her
Rachel: why
Finn: well you got hurt

Rachel's pov

Rachel: why
Finn: you got hurt
Rachel: oh yea...
I look down and cover my eyes as tears slip away

Finns pov

I see her put her hands to her eyes and see her confused look turn into a frown
I walk up to her and say
Finn: are you ok, Rach?
Rachel: of course I am, my boyfriend broke up with me and I'm in a hospital bed as he asks me if I'm ok. *i say sarcastically*
She sobs

Finn: I know your mad I broke up with you, but I need a break. I'm sorry if your can't handle that but I don't know what to tell you. Don't get me wrong, I still love and care about you but I need to be free for a little bit.
Rachel: why do you need to be free without me? Am I doing something wrong for you to be happy?
Finn: of course not, I just need a break ok? Also, please don't ever cut again please. I can't see you hurt like this and no it's my fault.
Rachel: ok fine, I won't do it again ( she lies, as she crosses her fingers behind her back. Finn doesn't notice)
Finn: ok than, I will see you at school then?
Rachel: of course (she says and fake smiles.)

Still Rachel's pov

At school the next day
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I walk into school with my best friend Santana Lopez
Im wearing a white hoodie and grey sweat pants. My hair is damp from the shower I took this morning and is in a messy bun. I am also wearing purple slippers.
Then there's Santana, she is on the wmhs cheer leading squad and is wearing her uniform. Her hair is straight and in a high pony.

We walk together into glee club and take two empty seats.

I see Quinn and Finn making out with each other and it makes me sick.

Mr.shue then starts his class

Mr.shue: who would like to sing their song that they wrote for regionals?
Rachel: I would love to mr shue
Mr.shue: the floors yours
He says and sits down in my seat

I start singing get it right

What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair!
Yeah, I'll send out a wish, yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take, to get it right?
To get it right?

I look at Finn when I finish singing. He is staring back at me, but it doesn't feel the same. He isn't smiling and neither am I.

I walk back to my seat before he can say anything. But I walk away too late.

Finn: that was a good song Rach
Rachel: thanks Finn, but can you not call me Rach
I say that with sass as everybody else in the class oohs and ahhs

Finn: I was just trying to be ni-

Finns pov

Finn: I was just trying to be ni-
She cuts me off sobbing as she runs out of the class

Santana: mr.shue, can I go check on her.
Mr.shue: of course you can

Santana's pov

I walk to the bathroom knowing that's where she is
But I see her at her locker grabbing something sharp and shiny
A razor

She runs to the bathroom and so do I

I walk into the bathroom seeing her unpack the razor

Santana: Rachel! I scream
I can't see my best friend get hurt
Rachel: what! She screams back sobbing
Santana: you can't do this
Rachel: why can't I? I have done it before. She cries as she lifts up her sleeve

When I see her scars my mouth drops. It hurts me knowing that my bestfriend is hurting in the inside and out

Santana: why are you doing this Rachel?!?!
Rachel: because my life sucks! I'm a 17 year old loser! Who just lost her boyfriend to the head cheer leader at our Highschool! Not only that, but that head cheerleader makes fun of me everyday of my freaking life! She throws slusheis at my head and she hits me! And my dads are always in business, so that doesn't make it any better! I scream at the top of my lungs sobbing
Santana: I can help you get through this
I say sobbing as well
I take the razor out of her hand and throw it away, but notice a tall muscular figure in the door way, Finn!

Santana: I'm going to fucking kill you Finn!*i say swinging my fist at him, he dodges everyone.)
Rachel grabs me and holds me back
Rachel: it's not worth it Santana
Finns pov

As mr.shue finishes up the lesson, I hear screaming and crying coming from the bathroom. I get up without any thinking and walk out the door. I hear footsteps and yells behind me, but I don't stop. The screaming and crying leads me to the bathroom. I hear and see Rachel talking about how her life sucks and everything. I walk quietly into the bathroom. Tears start forming in my eyes. I see the razor in her hand.

I look behind me and see that Kurt and puck followed me into the bathroom, fuck!

Santana: I can help you get through this

I see her throw the razor in the garbage and she looks up at me. So does Rachel.

Santana: I'm going to fucking kill you Finn!*santana say swinging her fist at me, i dodge everyone.)
Rachel grabs Santana and holds her back
Rachel: it's not worth it Santana

I can't believe what I do next

Rachel tries to walk past me, but I grab her face and start making out with her. The kiss gets deep until she pulls away with a mad puss on her face.

Rachel puts her hood on and says: fuck you!

Then next thing I know it a hand strikes my face, and it's Rachel's.

She waves her hand trying to wipe the pain from her hand away but she can't. And she walks away sobbing.

I grab my cheek making sure it wasn't bleeding, she hit me hard.

Hello everyone, I hope your enjoying this story so far. It's been a lot of fun to write, but sad at the same time. I honestly really wanted to see Santana and Rachel be friends so I wrote it like that so yeah. Also I do not own any of the glee characters. Byeee:)