I can't do this anymore

Its all my fault

Chapter 22

Quinn's pov

It's 5:00 and I grab my laptop and the letter that mr.schue gave us. I go on YouTube and search, "Rachel Berrys last song." I press the live video and see Rachel sitting on her bed with her CD player next to her.

Rachel starts talking: ," hi guys, I expect all the glee club to be watching this. Including mr.schue and ms.pilsbury. So here I go,"

Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train
Goin' anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching
In the night
Streetlight people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night

Workin' hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win
Some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching
In the night
Streetlight people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night

[Instrumental interlude]

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people
Don't stop believin'
Hold on
Streetlight people
Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight people

After I finish singing, I tear up.

Why is she fucking crying? What's happening?

"I expected you guys to have read your letters by now.

Quinn: shit... ( whispers)
I open the letter quickly and read at the same time as listening to her speak.

Rachel is in the background: As you can now see, that was just the last song I will ever sing on this earth. And now you guys know that this video is my suicide video. More than Half the people watching this didn't expect me to do this. But about 3/4th of the people watching this knew I was going through hell on this earth. So their not surprised I'm doing this so, you guys can stop watching now. But if you really care, just watch me die."

I finish reading right as she stops talking. I am now sobbing out of control. I quickly shut the laptop and call Finn. I have no clue if he was watching this, but he most likely was.

I wait for him to pick up, but he doesn't it goes straight to voicemail. What the fuck! Why didn't he pick up! Rachel needs help!

After about 3 minutes of being mad, I turn into a miserable mess.

I am the reason of all of this, I was the bitchiest person to her and she is gorgeous. I deserve to go to hell. I bullied her because I was jealous of her. I never expected her to die because of me. ITS ALL MY FAULT!

There are 3 more chapters left, but there will be a sequel to this book. I dont know what its called yet.