Silence ✧ H.S

Chapter 32

Chapter Thirty Two

We went back to my flat before we went to get food. I grabbed my phone and looked around, nobody was here. I wonder where Dakota is. I came back down stairs and Harry was sitting in his vehicle waiting for me to get in, I got in and off we went.

"Starbucks?" Harry asked wanting to know where I wanted to go. "Yes!" I said smiling. Once we got there, we got what we wanted and sat down at a table. "Have you talked to Niall?" I asked wanting to know if he would know if he was with Dakota or not. "Well, he said he was taking Dakota to Ireland to meet his family, they sound pretty serious." Harry replied. I checked my messages and I had about twenty billion from Dakota. I'm such a horrible friend. There were ten saying, "Niall and I are going to Ireland!" And like fifteen saying, "OMG. I HAVE TO MEET HIS FAMILY." I knew that she was probably scared out of her mind so I called her.

"Hello?"

"Hey! So, are you in Ireland?"

"Well, if you must know yes. My Best Friend has kind of neglected me the last couple of days, so my adorable boyfriend took me on a little getaway!" Boyfriend? They are dating? That's so sweet, they are so perfect for each other.

"Boyfriend? Sounds like my Best Friend hasn't been telling me her secrets!" I heard her laugh.

"Well, mine has been spending all her time with her lover!"

"You mean my boyfriend?" I said smiling and I could tell she was too.

"Aww! Tell Harry to answer his phone!" I laughed and told Harry to answer his phone and he looked confused then we heard his phone ring and I knew it had to be Niall.

"You guys are dating curly?!" I could hear Niall yell on my end and Harry's. "Yes we are. I think I finally found the one." Harry said to Niall smiling and looking up into my eyes, I blushed and looked at the ground. "Kota, I have to eat and do some stuff, but I swear I'll call you later and catch up on everything!"

"Okay. I love you! Byeeee!" Dakota said and I replied smiling, "Love you too. Byee!" I hung up and put my phone down, but Harry was still on his talking to Niall.

"Yes. I will. Love you too Nialler! Bye!" I heard Harry say over the phone and then he set his phone down and sighed.

"They are really perfect for each other, you're right!" Harry said and I sipped my coffee smiling. I looked out the window and saw a couple walking with a stroller and they looked so happy with their little family and I couldn't help but grin at the sight. "Ever think about kids?" Harry said and I looked towards him confused.

"Huh?"

"The couple with the baby, I saw how you were looking at them with a smile!" I looked back at them and then back at Harry. "Yeah, I think about kids." I tapped on my coffee and tried to avoid the subject.

"What's wrong?" Harry asked and grabbed my hand. "Nothing." A tear came from my eye and I pushed it away. I have a secret that only Dakota and my ex know and I was too afraid to tell Harry because I didn't know how he'd react.

"It's not nothing, tell me. I won't judge you, I love you." Harry really wanted to know but I couldn't tell him, at least not here, not now.

"Let's go somewhere more private." Harry had a serious look on his face when I said this now. We got up and he drove to a beach. It was 9 in the morning so there was really nobody here. We stood at the end of the peer and I looked off into the water and the sun was coming up fully and I knew Harry wanted me to just spit it out but I was trying to figure out a way to say it. We stood there and I could tell he didn't want to rush me so I finally said it taking in a breath.

"I can't have kids." I kept looking at the water and while Harry was looking at me. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, I can't have kids." I looked at Harry and he just looked lost. "I was told by a doctor that there was something wrong with me and that I couldn't have kids. Simple as that." I sighed getting angry at myself because I knew I was still holding precious information back from Harry.

"Oh. Well how do you know for sure. That was the first time you've had sex, right?" He said and I looked back up at him and didn't say anything because I didn't know how to tell him I was lying.

"Right?" He asked again and I looked back at the water. "You lied to me." Harry said walking off, I turned around and reached out for his arm but he started to pick up his pace. I ran and caught up to him.

"Why did you lie to me?"

"I didn't know how to tell you!"

"TELL ME WHAT?" Harry said yelling at me and I started to cry.

"I can't." He shook his head and put his hands behind his head and walked off trying to steam off. I started to walk off the opposite direction of Harry. I found my way back home, locked my door, ran to my bedroom and locked that door too, and sat in a corner and cried. After 30 minutes, I was still crying, so I called up Dakota because I knew she would understand.

"Hello?"

"Kota.." I said with tears falling.

"Falyn? What's wrong sweetie?" I kept crying. "Harry found out I lied and now he doesn't want me. I couldn't tell him, he wouldn't understand. He walked off, so I ran home." I had to say with tears still pouring out. "What? What can't you tell him?"

"About sex, I can't have kids, me not being a virgin." "Oh." There was silence besides me still crying. "I know that it's really hard but you have to tell him eventually. Tell him sooner than later because if he stays then that's how you know he understands and cares." She was right, I had to go find Harry. "I will." I said, hanging up.

Falyn, you sneaky bitch you

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