I WISH I WAS BESIDE YOU

POSSIBILITIES

CATES POV
I'm late my period is late I mean I know Luke and I have always talked about having kids just not this soon. Current city is Dublin Ireland calums gone off the wall today nobody's seen him but I'm not too worried at all hell be fine. The rest of the boys are at a radio show right now I thought about going and getting a test but he should do that with me he'd want to be there for me. I texted Luke to call me when they were done about a minute later he called.

"Hey sexy wife" that's his new nickname for me I blushes "lukeyboo I'm late well my periods late we could be pregnant pick me up a few tests" I say. "Babe first of all this is amazing I mean if you are that is I'm so stoked right now and second were not done at the interview so you not only told me but the guys. All the fans here and all the fans listening so twitter should be blowing up soon" he laughs"I'd be the best uncle" "me and angel call godparents" "no way Cates don't listen to him me and Lucy are the better choice" the guys said.

At least everyone's happy I thought"oh geez guys we don't even know if I'm pregnant gotta jet love ya all especially you Luke" I hang up. Sure enough twitter was crazy @cateshemmings I promise Luke and I will tweet you the results xx. About 30 minutes later Luke busted through the door and kissed me a lot"I don't care what the results are but i really want a baby girl" he says. "Let me go pee on these" I told him he kissed my neck a few times. I'm so lucky to have luke "set the timer for five minutes" I tell him excited.

I sat on the counter Luke put his hands on my waist"if I am pregnant you'll be okay right cause I know we always talked about waiting for a year or two since we are only 18." I say to Luke"of course I will be catekins I want kids with you. Little you's and little mes running around while we chance em its what I've always dreamed off" he smiles and kisses my cheek. We hear the timer go off"lukeyboo you look " I panicked"okay here we go... Negative negative negative" he reads.

I'm kinda disappointed Luke hugs me tightly and kisses my head"its okay well try after our one year anniversary of being married okay. Don't be sad you must just be a little late" he comforts I didn't even have to say a word he just knows me so well. "I'll tweet the fans" I said he nodes

@cateshemmings sorry guys no hemming baby...yet tests were negative soon though Luke and I are very excited for when the day the results are positive. Xxx

@calum5SOS WHAT. NOOO!!! I'm not gonna be uncle!! I wanna be an uncle.

@supercoolsadie bummer wanted to be an auntie :/ but when it happens for real you'll be good parents.

"LUKE CATES" Ashton shouts barging in"ash mate if this is about the not pregnancy" Luke starts"no its worse I went to calums room. Wanted to now play FIFA found note went to NYC" he huffs. Oh shit. No no but he just tweeted I thought he can't its just make things worse for him"there's gotta be more he wouldn't just go to new York to win Sades back now. Not when he's been doing so good" Luke states"i agree there's gotta be more" I chime. "Your right..there is...so much you don't know" Mikey says in tears"he won't tell me he's been a mess for the past hour" angel told us.

"Mike come on sit all of you ash get luc" I ordered after a minute angel calmed down Michael"alright dude were all here. Tell us what you know" Ashton looks at him"ok calum hasent been doing as well as he leads. He made a promise to Sadie over the phone no more tears on stage or during interviews. Last week when we were in Frankfurt I believe I found him his wrists were bleeding he self harmed. Then yelled at me said I gotta get her back I'm nothing without her I need her I can't function without her. So I said cal I love you but you gotta let her go its been a month time to move on you need help mate I think you need therapy. He got defensive real quick yelled out don't you get it I can't get over her I can't move her somehow my so called jet black heart won't forget her. I told him to calm down he pushed me then shouted I don't need help I just need her and he shoved all his toiletries off the sink. He's messed up. And I've tried talking to him but he just spits at me says to drop it he's been saying things like I need to see her she can help me she can help the pain. " Michael explains with more tears.

The room was dead silent I looked around Luke was sobbing and crying Ashton had tears and looked down. I was crying this. This wasent the funny pranking joking sweet and annoying calum we knew. He was depressed lost why didn't he come to me"I just..I could've done something I'm just so wrapped up in the tour and his smiley side and cates..my best friend cut himself and I didn't know he was hurting so bad. " Luke says sobbing and then I lost it all the tears poured out Luke pulled me onto his lap we hugged and cried for our best friend.

"Guys I know were all worried about calum and his well being but maybe he's doing the right thing" angel starts wiping her eyes. I look up from Luke's chest"how so" I choked out"maybe what he needs is to see Sadie she can help him she can talk to him she can reach him in a way we can't. She dated him she knows stuff we dont once she sees how broken inside he truly is maybe shell be In contact more" angel points out. "I think your right baby I think we need to let him do this and carry on tour for a few days without him. I'll call management" Michael agrees and pulls his phone out perhaps angel was right.