I WISH I WAS BESIDE YOU

21ST CENTURY BREAKDOWN

LUKE POV
Cates was mad at me again today because i forgot to take out the trash and i also may have made her change her outfit so she wouldn't match me. I've been hiding downstairs all morning why why do i have to be so problematic. Its always my fault i can never do anything right i try so hard I'm not good enough for the fans i don't know then as well as Mikey or ash. I just feel like i should be better at song writing and playing the guitar i think I'm awful. Don't even get me started on cates i don't deserve her she continuously puts up with all my shit.

I slumped on the couch"why why am i such a failure" i say"Luke don't say that" cates enters the room. "Your suppose to be mad at me" "yeah well I'm not anymore come on lukey whats wrong" she inquires. "I'm just have one if those days" i stared simply"don't be like that Luke come on tell me babe" she pushes.

" its just I'm having one of those day where i feel like I'm not good enough. I don't know my fan base as well as i should i don't write good songs or play as well as i should. I don't deserve you either your so good to me and I'm just this walking awkward problem ensuing guy" i vented. "Luke that's Bullshits all of it" she starts.

"Your the sound visionary in the band you always know how the music should should sound. Your voice is killer your songs are amazing beside you is a fan favorite and trust me i don't deserve you. Sure you can be a pain in the ass but your the sweetest most adorable person in the world you do so much for me on a daily basis you inspire me to be better. You keep me strong when i feel like breaking" cates said"thanks" i smile.

"Your lip piercing is hott you know that right" i chuckle and blush at that"i do that's why i got it" she kisses me a few times. My mum called"put it on speaker" cates calls coming back down stairs. "Hey second mummy" cates greets"hey sweetie how are you and Luke" she asks"were good mum still married happy in love " i tell her. "Good i called well two reasons one i miss you and two i love you both of you can you drive over tomorrow" mum asks"um ah well you see ah we ah umm " i struggled"that's Luke for Wed love too" cates answers.

"Why do you think she wants to meet with us" i ask cates were in the car in our way to mums. Were both wearing our jackets flannels and black skinny jeans i kinda owe her. "Don't know lukeyboo i think she really does just miss us last time she saw us was on the tour in Texas i wanna say" she replies."my favorite child" mum says "aww gee thanks " i say" not you I'm talking about my daughter come here cates how was the drive" she asks i felt hurt "it was normal we talked listened to Luke's playlist "cates laughed.""SISTER" jack shouts hugging cates"hey how are you its been forever".

"I'm wonderful just been working and going to school oh hi Luke" he replies '' hey jack glad to know everyone's so happy to see me" i say sarcastic" Luke of course were happy to see you quit being so dramatic" mum scolds" hey look at me lukeyboo i love you okay" cates kisses my cheek" i love you too sexy wife" i smile"Luke we love you were so proud of you as a man as a bandmate as a husband" mum compliments. "Thanks mum" we decided to play a game of monopoly while we wait for my dad to get home. "Luke you owe me 24 bucks" "damn why so expensive babe" i respond.

"Cause the best things in life are the ones we pay for the most" she sasses"is that why you spend so much money on clothes" i sass back. "No but that's why you spent so much money on trying to impress me" i huffed"oooo burn" jack said. I glared at him"stop spending so much fucking time with mikey" i shook my head after a while dad came home"hey dad" i hug him"son its been too long".

"Dad loves me" i praise"do i even wanna know" he states"he was just being Luke earlier" cates chimes"well ill start dinner" mum leaves. "I have to pee" cates also leaves i lay on the couch"tell me Luke you treating that girl good" dad looks stern. "Of course dad she's the only girl on the planet whoed marry me" "that's not true ill bet arzaylea would" jack laughs. Ugh her i just kinda awkwardly chuckled"yea" "Luke you stole my spot" cates whines"yes yes i did" "whatever ill sit on the floor". "So cates when are you and Luke gonna have children" dad asks i shoot up and my eyes go wide i scratch my head.

"Uhhhhhhh i gotta go do something upstairs" i say awkward and run away. "To answer your question I'm not sure when we will i know that we both want kids but we were 18 when we got married i just don't think were ready." i hear cates tell them more like I'm not ready i thought i lay on my bed and look around at my old room. "Its been a rough day for you hasn't it" mum says coming in"yeah it has in a way" i state.

"She wanted to come cates did but i told her to stay lukey honey there's no pressure to have kids you have em when your ready too. Luke in face of awkward situations running away is never the option it just makes things worse what have i always told you" mum asks. "To face everything head on even when its hard" i roll my eyes"that's right you wanna stop being problematic and awkward. Don't run away say your sorry just be honest were your family we wont judge you" she finishes"thanks mum i love you" i say hugging her"i love you luke"

"Hey you doing okay" cates asked concerned" ill be fine I'm okay now i love you" i say. She sits on my lap and hugs me"i just don't like seeing you so down" she mumbles"I'm never down when I'm around you" i whisper. "Dinner ready" mum calls"oh my god it looks so good"i comment it was delicious. We  sit back on the couch and talk cates fell asleep i chuckled"we should probably go" i say"no Luke stay she's already asleep".

Fuck she's asleep that means i have to carry her upstairs i give her my t shirt while i put on my old good Charlotte one. "No Luke please stay" she mumbles"your lucky I'm feeling extra nice today" i wink. Cates cuddles into me and puts her arms around me"i love you" "love you more" she says. When i woke up she was gone which is weird I'm always up first. "Mum wheres my wife" i ask her"out with jack he woke her up they went to grab coffee and breakfast". "Oh well okay" i said getting water"you feeling okay today lukey" she says concerned.

"Yeah i am its gonna be a good day I'm not going to be problematic or awkward. Cool calm collected like Mikey" i state"good luck with that" i check Twitter and post a selfie to Instagram.
@cateshemmings b fast with my favorite brother in law. We so excited.
@luke5SOS @cateshemmings i would have come too if you guys woke me up. Luke wants pancakes:-(
@cateshemmings @luke5SOS well too bad you dont get any. Well be home soon

@luke5SOS @cateshemmings fuck both of you. You know what take as much time as you want i might just leave without you ;-).

@cateshemmings @luke5SOS Luke Robert hemmings you do that and your dead.

@luke5SOS @cateshemmings caitie Marie hemmings you wouldn't dare....just come home so i can cuddle you and kiss you

I made my own pancakes and was eating them when they got back. " when the barista said demo instead of hemmo was the best" jack exclaims cates was laughing"morning Liz" she greets. "Sounds like you guys had fun Luke's in the kitchen". "Hey lukeyboo" "catekins" i get up and hug her. "I missed you this morning" "i missed you more" i say i kiss her a few times"wait one more" i kiss her two more times. "I love you so damn much thank you for marrying me" i tell her"i love you so damn much and well somebody had too lukeyboo" i kiss her more.

"Hey Luke your kinda hott right now" cates me i kiss her neck"HM yeah well your kinda sexy right now" i say. "Mum is that going to be me one day" jack asks"i sure hope so i mean Luke's got you all beat. He's already a millionaire owns a house and has been married for over a year. He's not even 20 yet get on his level" mum sasses him."yeah jack get on my level" i wink at him cates was still clinging to me as we walked to the couch. "I like you so much better when your away from Luke" jack chuckles"he's just so awkward and adorable i mean how can you not love lukeyboo" cates kisses my cheeks.

Cates and i grabbed our stuff and headed out"Luke why are we stopping" cates questions"cause you'll see" i smirk"okay". I put my arm around her we got to the top of this lookout point overlooking the whole town. "I used to come here and sit on the edge just dream about how my life would be. I promised myself I'd take whoever i married here to show here this pretty sight" i smile real big. "Awww Luke that's really cute well it is amazing up here" she comments i pull her into me"I'm sorry cates" i say"for what. You haven't done anything yet today" "I'm just sorry for being so awkward problematic and dramatic. I just wish i wasn't i worry that ill push you away or make you so mad one day you'll leave" o mumble.

"Lucas hemmings stop it right there I'm never leaving. You cant change those things about yourself i fell in love with the awkward boy who stuttered at almost every word. Who could not for the life of him do anything without messing up and most of the time your funny when your dramatic. I've always found you adorable when your awkward" she tells me"thanks caitie hemmings lets head back now".

We arrive home at around lunchtime"what do you wanna have for lunch babe" i ask. "I don't really know I'm still kinda full from breakfast we should just get pizza hut" "were getting it delivered i refuse to move" i point out.