I WISH I WAS BESIDE YOU

I MISS YOU AND JOBS

CALUMS POV
"I miss you even more than life it's self everyday where apart my heart grows founder i cant wait to hold you. To cuddle you i love you so much and cant wait to be back with you" i say"unbelievable what am i a potato i get hey sades sup i miss you and honey a dog gets a monologue this is injustice" Sadie sasses. I laugh"i mean look at her" i say"awww i know she's adorable but still" sades makes a face at me"hey i love you Sadie so much i miss you babygirl I'm craving kisses. Among other things" i wink she chuckles "yeah I'm craving you too now that were engaged I'm finding it so much harder to be away from you".

"I know babygirl same " i sigh"come visit me soon" i tell her"ill try too" she smiles. My heart aches and longs for her shit she's so pretty"i love you future Mrs hood" i look at her."i love you too Mr hood" she laughs god i need her so bad"i gotta go cal pal i need to finish this really big project" she says"okay i love you babygirl" "i love you" i kiss the screen. I sink into the couch"why why is it so fucking hard " i whine i mean i love how dedicated she is to her studies but damn. Its so hard to not have her she's just starting fall quarter only been in a new quarter for a week or so. "Hey calum you doing okay mate" ash asks"yeah I'm fine i just miss my fiance hows Carmen" i ask.

"Wonderful actually she gets to go home on Thursday" he tells me. "Ashton that's amazing" i exclaim hugging him he giggles"yeah i just really wanna see her but we have a show to do. I wanna hold my little girl more than anything" he tells me it was then when i noticed the pain hiding behind that bright chipper spirit."your wish is my command" i state heading off to find the other boys"Luke stop kissing your wife Michael stop playing Pokemon we need to have a band meeting" i call. they both groan but come out and sit next to me.

"Carmen gets released on Thursday and Ashton just wants to hold his baby girl whose healthy its his only wish i think he should go home for a few days. but first Ashton's been trying so hard but on the inside we all know he's dead on the inside we cant let tour stop him from being a father '' i say."i agree but what can we do about it" Michael wonders" convince Lucy to come with Carmen back on the tour because ash wont because he's too nice and knows shell say no. if we do it shell take it more seriously" i tell them Luke looks up and scratches his head.

"okay i think that's a good plan but Lucy is super stubborn like mega stubborn i don't think shell listen to us the only person she does is cates and sometimes ash. i think i might have a better plan and it involves numbers a slideshow and presenting" Luke says chipper"fuck no there's a reason i dropped out of school i cant do shit like that" Michael protests"calm down ill handle research cal can to the presenting and you can help cates in talking to Lucy " Luke orders. "fine but only for ash" he mumbles after 2 hours of solid work we were done Luke had finished the slideshow cates and Michael convinced ash and Lucy to let ash go home for a few days. she agreed to video chat with us where we will show her our slideshow

"Luke i forget how smart you are these facts are legendary there's no way she can say no after this presentation" Michael comments"i was good in school" he smirks. '' hey babe do you think Lucy will will be able to refuse this" Luke called out to cates" hmm i don't know let me see it" she sits on his lap. there so perfectly in sync "you did a good job i think shell go for it" cates smiles he kisses her and laughs"hey cal pal you ready to present this" she asks" i guess so" i shrug.

"okay guys whats so important that you need me to video chat and wheres Ashton" Lucy questions" Lucy we all love you and ash a lot. were worried about ash look you haven't seen him he's dead on the inside he only acts like himself to hide his pain and convince the fans everything is okay he tries so hard to be the positive one. even when he wants to not be" Michael starts Lucy looks nervous" is he really that bad cates" she asks" yes and there's more look Lucy because we love you we think its best you and Carmen come on tour before you protest you promised you'd watch the slideshow" cates glares at her.

she sighs but agrees the first slide was pictures of Ashton"this is the ash were used to seeing bubbly giggly chipper adventurous" i say Luke clicks the next slide" this is the ash we have now. one who sits on his bunk trying to not cry fake smiling and hurting" i continue Luke hits the button." here's a few facts kids who grow up with both parents still together are 3 times as less likely to get involved with drugs and alcohol. they are 4 times more apt to go on and be something great like a doctor lawyer or congresspeople 40 percent of teens say that their dad is their hero and have since they were little. the last one is that 60 percent of girls say that their closer with their dad than their mom and that their dad not only spoils them but protects and makes them feel safe" i read.

"Ashton is a wonderful husband wonderful bandmate friend and father if you'll let him be. ash wont say it but he needs you and he needs to be able to watch he baby girl grow up i don't give 2 shits how stubborn you are your fucking nuts if you don't realize that you coming is the right choice. i fear that one day ash is going to have enough and hell explode and i don't want that to happen" Mikey finishes. Lucy's in tears" its not just him it goes both ways I've missed him so much and it nearly killed me knowing he wasn't going to be here to bring Carmen home. okay that was a good presentation when ash comes home we will leave with him all three of us" she smiles"YAYAAAYAY" we all shout and jump.

"hey everybody where the hell are you we gotta show to preform in like an hour" ash says barging in" oh hey gorgeous i miss you" he says kissing the screen" i miss you too and I'm just hanging out with cates and the boys" she smiles" you alright you've been crying " he asks worried."I'm fine ash go to the show" Lucy told him and we left. at midnight we all went to bed "calum cal cal pal wake up" someone shook me"is it morning" i mumbled"depends on your definition of morning" the voice was defiantly a girl"Sadie is that you have my dreams been answered" i replied yawning.

"no calum just wake up please" they voice begged i opened my eyes it was cates and it was dark out" cates why the fuck did you wake me up" i asked calmly but annoyed"cause Luke yelled at me for trying to wake him up. i want a milkshake really badly wanna get one" she smiles"its like 3am what place is open this late" i comment" McDonald's " she says"fine i haven't had a milkshake in forever" i state yawning so we go get milkshakes. she fell asleep on the table so i carried her back and layed her in my bunk with me"night calum" she mutters"night best friend" i smile.