I WISH I WAS BESIDE YOU

IN SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH

LUCYS POV
I miss Ashton so much I wish he was he was here but he's not he will be they are flying back today they wanted to stay a few days in Manila. My little baby girl is growing so much each day she gets stronger bigger Sadie's been so wonderful through it all she's here most days bringing me coffee fresh clothes. She just sits and talks with me sometimes we go out for lunch or dinner Ashton's been so positive he gives me so much strength today I cried. I cried for her to get better"Lucy please stop crying" a soft voice said.

It was Ashton it had to be Ashton"ASh is that you" I choke out"please stop crying Lucy shell be okay so will you" he kissed my forehead. I hugged him so tightly"how long are you here" I ask"til April 5th then we have to tour Europe" he says. I kissed him for a long time "I'm gonna go see Carmen" he said I watched as he held her fingers and kissed the glass. "We can almost hold her she's almost a month old almost old enough to be at normal length." I say"that's wonderful news then you can be with us for Europe" he smiles.

Here it comes I've been dreading this"Ashton I love you" I start"you can't come with me can you" he looks at me. "How the fuck" "shh don't swear but I knew it. I could tell by your face even after Carmen's ready to come home they'll have to check up on her. I'm just going to have to live with the fact I'll miss the first year of my child's life" he cries"Ashy" I coo"no don't I'll be fine " he responds. "You will never be your father okay you call every day text all say Skype every day to see her. Carmen is so loved by her dad" I wipe his tears"she is so much Lucy".

"Hey in sickness and in health okay I love you so much Ashton Fletcher Irwin I married you to deal with the hardest of times" I say."You don't know how bad I needed to hear that I love you Lucy Marie Irwin" he kisses me for a while. In this moment I craved him I needed him"let's go home Ashton" I whisper"why" he giggled."Because Ash I haven't seen my husband in a month and I've gone crazy in missing him" he picks me up and carries me out.

"Lucy my Lucy" he mumbles kissing my neck"are you up for more" "Lucy I'm a guy I'm always up for sex especially if its with you" he strokes my sides. You guessed it we had more sex"we should stop before we make another baby" he giggles"okay. I love you Ashton alright I'm so glad your back" "I love you more Lucy" he kisses me a few more times. We spent the rest of the day at the beach and then we walked along the boardwalk "you know last time we did this it was in July of last year. You told me you were pregnant right here" he chuckles"this time how bout I tell you I love you" I say pushing him in the water.

"LUCY" he yells laughing I was too"that was mean really fucking mean" he says "here I come" I jump in I swim over to him. "I love you Ash" "love you more".

LUKE'S POV
This morning we had to appear on daybreak"bye sleepy head love you" i kiss Cates cheek. I had to get some caffeine in my system or else i wasn't going to make it. "LUKEYBOO" Ashton yells"Ash its like 6 30 shut up" i say"don't be grumpy for our fans" he scolds. "Fresh off from their Asia leg of their newest tour we have 5 seconds of summer" we come out and sit on the couch. "So boys enjoying the last days of summer" she asks"trying too i went to the beach yesterday with my wife" Ash replied." I don't really like summer Angel and i just lounge around the pool '' Michael chuckles. "My wife and i will probably party " i say"yeah no bringing Cates drunk to shows" Ash reminds me.

The others laugh"care to explain Luke" he looks at me"okay basically we partied the previous night she stayed up all night. I had rehearsal and couldn't leave her home so i took her with me. Ash got mad and Angel took her home" i said i was so tired after the interview i had to get more coffee. I also grabbed Cates some and i was feeling extra nice so i git her breakfast ice cream and flowers. When i walked in Cates was on the floor in a cocoon with tissues everywhere i chuckled"babe are you sick" "bdo" she sniffles. I sat next to her "i got you coffee and breakfast" i smile.

"Tanks wvove you" she squeaks"i also got you flowers and some ice cream" i hand them over. "Aww i love you so much more" she coughs"i also got you some kisses" i peck her lips a few times. "Your so sweet" she tells me"i try to make up all the dorky and awkward things with sweetie thingamabobs stuff". "I have another interview in an hour with smallze and then some studio time later. Ill try to come home in-between" she smiles but then sneezes"here's a tissue" i kiss her cheek.

"Luke stop kissing me then you'll be sick " she says"i don't care i love you its worth it" she cuddles into me. "I love you more" Cates says"i love you more than i love my flannels and jeans" i squish her face"do you love me that much" she pouts. I nod and turn her head to kiss her a few times"Luke will you turn on the heat" she asks. That involves stairs cold basement and pressing buttons"wait never mind just cuddle me" she says. "Okay but if in 5 minutes you want the heat I'm not going down there" i state. She scoots onto me"you look tired when did you wake up" i ask"like 7am" she mumbles.

"Go to sleep you need it" "only for a short while" she says. I laugh at her cuteness. Cates falls asleep within minutes i have to leave soon but i look at her she's so peaceful and adorable."Ash i cant make it to smallze Cates is sick and asleep on me see you at studio time. Thanks bye" i say"wait what Lukey no" he said forcefully i hung up i got like 4 messages from Ashton.

Ash
Lukey no

Ash
You better be there
Ash
Pick up the phone
Ash
She better be fucking dying.

Luke
Thanks ash :)

I watch a documentary about physics of light then i watch one about accounting. Cates woke up halfway through it"Luke why whats going on" she said confused. "Your sick you fell asleep on me i couldn't leave you" i smile. "But the interview" "but nothing i didn't really wanna go anyways" i smirk"well thanks for staying with me i needed the sleep" she kisses my cheek. "LUCAS HEMMINGS" Ashton shouts barging in"Ash" i grin big"no that's gonna work this interview was important. You missed it I'm disappointed also here to drag you to studio time" he scolds.

"How sick are you Cates" he glares at her and me"my nose is stuffy I'm coughing my throat is really sore and i just don't feel good ash" Cates cries. "You don't sound that sick you ditched the band for a cold. We announced don bronco as our opening act we did a lot of reflection i told everyone about Carmen i just wish you could have been here. I blame you come on Caitie Marie Hemmings you know better the job comes first relationship second". Ash said very grumpy i was annoyed with him"Ash your under a ton of stress right now. I get it okay look just take a breather" i say softly"no its so fucking unfair" he shouts.

This is good he needs to let out his anger"oh yeah how" i provoke"Lukey what are you doing" Cates looks worried. "Trust me I'm helping him" i whisper"you know damn well what I'm talking about" he said"Ash this isn't you man just let it all out. Let out all the jealousy anger and pain then we will walk out that door laughing" i state."Fine you caught me your so lucky Cates loves tour you guys have this amazing relationship. You never fight you always work through things and you're never apart i just want Lucy on tour with me. I don't understand why it had to be my child I'm so angry i should be holding her playing with her but no I'm stuck watching her fight in a glass box. I try so hard to keep positive but its hard Luke i love them so much it hurts me" Ashton lets out.

He was crying"Ash Carmen will make it they will come on tour you will survive and for the record Cates and i are not perfect. You and Lucy are the golden couple you only fight about important issues. Marriage Isent easy you guys make seem easy look Ashton for once in your life don't be the giver be the accepted. Accept that yes Carmen was born premature accept the fact life isn't fair. God damnit Ashton everything will end up being okay stay home longer if you need too. The fans will understand you need to stop being grumpy and start dealing with everything" i finish"holy shit Luke that was amazing '' Cates whispers. Ash looks up at me and squeezes me"thanks Luke i needed that" "anytime Ash its what I'm here for '' i hug him again"okay lets go write a song" he laughs.