In The Name Of Love ✔ #MissionDesi

Chapter 44 - Realization

Guys! Thankyou so much for your answers on my Author's Note! I'm really happy to know that you love this book! Tbh, I was afraid that you have lost interest in this story but Alhamdulilah! :* I've decided to continue what I have planned but I'll make my chapters short. ;)

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Aayesha's POV

I furrowed slightly as I changed my side and froze myself when I felt uneasy suddenly, I felt myself cold. I deepened my frown eyebrows when I realized there was something around my waist and I slowly raised my hand and touched that thing on my stomach, something stiff and on top of that my head was so heavy as if someone tied rock or stone around it.

Wait...what??

I squinted open my eyes and immediately shut it back when the sun rays were penetrating through the balcony, burning my eyes but I didn't give up. I forced myself to part my eyelids and I finally succeeded, wrinkles formed on my forehead when I felt something unusual engulfed me, something different surrounded me.

"Ahh!" I groaned when I felt pain in my head again, my head felt so heavy that made my frowns grew even wider.

"What's wrong with me?" I whined, rubbing my forehead as my mind travelled to last night incidents.

Dinner...dance...

Something pulled me back suddenly from my waist made me collide with something stiff behind me and I trailed my eyes down to myself which was covered with a duvet and I gulped down internally, feeling queasy all of sudden when I could feel hand on around my waist.

I felt hot breaths were fanning the back of my neck, giving me goosebumps as my breaths were heavy and uneven. With fear that started to engulf me, I slowly spun my head and looked behind and upon catching a sight of him, my eyes were popped out of their sockets in utmost shock and I was numb myself for a moment.

What...what happened??

I hurriedly sat straight on the bed as I pulled the duvet along with me when my eyes turned glassy sighting him shirtless beside me. I felt stone in my throat when realization struck me what has happened in between us after sighting few red droplets on the sheet and I clutched the duvet tight on my chest, trying myself to not whimper.

I quickly covered my mouth with my palm when an uncontrollable tear escaped my eyelid as I ran my eyeballs on him who was still sleeping peacefully, lying on his chest as his half body was covered with the same duvet with mine, unware of what has happened between us.

Seeing myself with no cloth at all, made me shudder visibly as I felt shivers in my spine. My eyes fall on the clothes on floor and unknowingly tears started to fall rapidly from my waterline, couldn't control it anymore.

I hurriedly bent down and picked his shirt from the floor and wore it before I quickly got off the bed and sprinted towards the bathroom.

Locking the door behind me, I turned the shower on and drenched myself from had to toe as I shut my eyes, let my tears mixed with the water. Slowly and slowly my legs became jelly and I fell on the wet marble floor, bringing my knees close to my chest, I hid my face as I cried badly while hugging my legs tight.

I hiccupped as I bit my hand, didn't want any whimper to escape my mouth before I slowly lifted my head remembering what happened last night and suddenly I felt disgust on myself. I hurriedly stood up and took a soap and brushed it harshly on my body, washing the dirt away.

The hardest thing to do when you're broken is to control your own tears and whimpers.

I screamed, felt like a total loser and threw the soap away in frustration when it has no use on me. I cried, letting the shower washed away all my pain. My emotions became abnormal, making me feel even more worse that I couldn't take in whatever happened to me. I felt so angry on myself for unknown reasons, I felt loath on myself for stupid reasons and I felt hatred on myself for uncertain reasons.