In The Name Of Love ✔ #MissionDesi

Chapter 55 - Complicated

I hope nobody will hate me for this update. :/

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Shehryaar's POV

7 months later...

I kept tossing myself on this bed from the past hours and I don't even know why I couldn't shut this damn eyelids. Sleep was nowhere near me and instead a strange uneasy feeling was engulfing me since then.

My heart beats were quicken for unknown reasons and I don't even know why I felt scared deep down in me, trembling unknowingly. I felt as if something bad was happening or about to happen to my dear ones.

I pulled myself up lazily and leaned on the bedpost as I inhaled deeply, shutting my eyes. I could feel there were sweat beads on my forehead and I raised my hand up, wiping it before I opened my eyes again.

"Calm down Shehry! Stop thinking shits." I said to myself and exhaled loudly and turned my head to the side. My eyebrows were lifted up itself upon catching a glance of the time now.

"5.25AM? I didn't sleep the whole night??" I gaped at myself before a heavy sigh was escaped my lips, shaking my head slightly I got off the bed and headed straight to the washroom.

I freshened up myself and changed before I took my oblution and stepped out of the washroom.

I walked to the shelf and took my Prayer Mat with me and then I extended it wide on the floor before I took my position and faced my Lord.

Ya Allah, I hope she's fine wherever she is now. Please protect her on every move she takes and keep her safe. I don't want anything else except her safety and happiness.

I ended my Dua and wiped my palms across my face before I exhaled heavily. I kept sitting in the posture for I don't know how long while reciting Durood Shareef, I felt calm a little doing that though tears were escaping my waterline.

Soon enough, I stood up and picked up the Prayer Mat with me before I placed it on it's place again. I then took my mobile with me and walked out of my room, heading straight downstairs to the living room.

The hall was still dark and I guessed everyone was still sleeping, made me sigh internally. I walked to the couch and plopped myself down on it, didn't even bother to switch on the lights as I was kinda liking this dark athmosphere nowadays and then leaned my back on the sofa.

I rested my head on the headpost and looked up at the ceiling; only my body was here, not my mind. Eventhough I couldn't see anything because of the darkness but I didn't care, I liked to be in my own world where only me and my thoughts existed, nothing else.

Why is it so hard to take in one peaceful breath nowadays?

Suddenly the hall was brighten up, startling me and I straightened my head as I looked to my side to find Mama was the one switching the lights. She was about to leave the hall when suddenly her gaze fell on me and she was frozen for a moment looking at me, so did I.

"Mama.." Escaped my lips in a hollow whisper and I stood up, was about to approach her when sniffled aloud, telling me that she doesn't want to see my face and I halted right on my tracks. I gulped down when I saw her face muscles were tense upon seeing me and before I could even do anything, she already turned around and left the hall, left me sighing.

I could feel my eyes turned wet, hurt with her behaviour towards me since the past seven months and not just her but in fact everyone in this house. All of them were angry with me and nobody ever talked to me properly or like before, including Hussain.

Everyone is ignoring me.

I sucked in deep breath while blinking away my unfallen tears and walked in the kitchen where Mama was but then suddenly my feet were halted at the doorway when a sudden fear was attacking me deep down. I was scared if Mama would ignore me like always.