Solitude

Heartbreak

" Does the pain ever stop?" she asked me with her green eyes glazed over.

I was silent for a few minutes before I answered her question with one of my own.

"Depends on what you want me to tell you. Do you want me to tell you something that's going to make you feel better or the truth?"

She sat there silently, hugging herself before she answered, "the truth"

"No. It never gets any easier. It'll feel like your chest is constricted and that there's never enough air in your lungs. Every time you breathe its going to feel like your last. Your going to stare at walls for hours on end, listening to music but not actually hearing the music. You're not even going to notice time passing, one minute its seven at night then its five in the morning and you haven't gotten any sleep. You'll walk around like a zombie for days, looking at old pictures and messages saying to yourself 'why me'.

I stood a few feet in front of her now, she had multiple tears on her cheeks which were now red and puffy.

"But days will turn into weeks. When weeks come around, you won't cry as much. You'll see or hear something that will remind you of him and your eyes will glaze over but you won't cry.

"There will be a time where you'll have to see him again. You'll feel that all the strength that you gained in the past few weeks will be drained from you as he enters the class, meeting your eyes. You'll look away, feeling all the memories come back to you. But don't ignore them, embrace them to help you feel."

"Months will pass and you'll see that hes moved on. You'l see him in the hallways, his hands wrapped around his new girlfriend. You'll remember the way his hands felt on you as he touched you. Tears will prick your eyes, but won't fall because you know its for the best."

"Years will pass and you've moved on. Your new lover will never replace what you had with him. He'll always be your first love."

"But over time the pain will changed from feeling that your world would break because he's no longer in your life, to a dull ache, and finally to nothing more than a small speed bump in your life." I concluded

I wrapped my arms around my best friend, who was now sobbing just as her days began.