Solitude

Reconciliation

I've always been hesitant when it comes to reconciling with people I used to be close with. I mean we used to be close for a reason and now we're not clearly for a reason.

I'm always hesitant on my behalf. Maybe I don't want to get hurt again or maybe I just don't want to deal with the drama or crap that comes along with them. I mean-for a 17 year old- I'm pretty happy with my life and how everything's going. I can honestly say, that this is the best I've ever felt in my life. Which is why I'm hesitant.

I don't want them to bring all sorts of stuff that I don't want or need in my life anymore. It's a little self centred I know but I can't help it. Would you honestly put your happiness and health on the line for people who bring stress into it?

I think not.

But then again there's an upside: you get to have them back in your life. They were clearly introduced to it in the first place and you were close to them for a reason too. There must've been some qualities or something that kept you close for awhile anyways. Besides what if they want to reconcile too but are hesitant just like me?

That's something that I'll never know. With one of the people I'm thinking about; they'd never reach out to me because they'd be too afraid or they think they'd upset me.

So instead I'll take the risk and see where reconciliation takes me.