Solitude

Ready For Ya

Taking my heels off my eyes, I see spots of colour dance before me. Blinking, they fade away just like the memories that had consumed me.

If there's one thing the past years have taught me, it's that I wasn't ready for you.

I wasn't ready for your passion and determination that consumed you. I wasn't ready for your confessions of desires, wants and needs. I wasn't ready for your warm arms to be wrapped around me from behind. I wasn't ready to feel the same way that you obviously felt for me.

Why?
I was coming off the back of another mistake.
Yet another mistake from a long line of them.
I was still reeling from it, what I did to him instead of me being the victim.

I was off balance, disoriented, and wasn't sure what I wanted when you came along.

With a sudden surge of encouragement, I unlocked my phone and clicked the blue follow button. I wasn't ready for you then, but I sure am ready for you now.