Sterek one shots

nothing but a booty call part 2

Stiles p.o.v

I watched as Derek ate his food. We wouldn't have to sneak around if he would just divorce his wife. He looked up at me. "Everything ok." he said. I just nodded and started picking at my food. He picked up my hands forcing me to look at him. "I know exactly what your thinking about and yes I'm going to leave her. In due time. Its not like were just dating were married with kids." he said. I looked down and pulled my hands from his. "Yea I know, don't remind me." I said. "I promise you we will have our happy ending but for now were just going to have to ride this one out," he said. He started eating his food again. I wasn't hungry anymore. I got up "I'm going to go to the restroom." I said. He looked up at me with questioning eyes. "Did you want me to go with you?" he said. "No." I said with a straight face and turned to walk away. "It was a joke stiles." I kept walking. I walked into the restroom. I started pacing. Maybe he was right maybe Scott was right. I started biting my nails...what if this is just wishful thinking...what if he's just playing me. Scott was right. I went into the stall and I started whimpering. I was crying. There was a knock on the door. "Stiles everything alright...are you crying." I heard. Crap Derek. "Uh yea, no...yea I'm fine." I said I walked out of the stall and to the sink. I started washing my hands. He walked over to me and put his hands around my waist and it wasn't comfortable anymore I knew it could never be all mine he would still have his wife and there family and I knew that I could never have that with him. I moved his hands from around my waist and looked at myself in the mirror. He cleared his throat. "I already paid for lunch so we can just go." He said. We walked out. We got to the, excuse me; his car and I couldn't get in. I stopped walking. He opened the door for me. I didn't get in. "stiles come on not right now." I looked up at him I could feel the tears invading my eyes. I didn't look at him I got right in his truck. He closed the door and walked over to his side. "Where to." He said. "Home." I softly said. I looked out the window the entire time. You could feel the tension. I hated the way I was feeling right now so used so disgusting. He pulled up to my house and turned out of his truck I opened the door to get out he grabbed my arm. "Are you mad at me?" he questioned. I pulled my arm from him and got out of his truck and I started walking towards my door. I fumbled with my keys and I eventually got the door unlocked I was about to open it when he grabbed me again by the waist this time. "So you are mad at me." He said trying to look me into my eyes. "Are you going to tell me what's wrong leave me here to guess on my own?" He moved closer I huffed and moved his hands off of me. "Derek, this isn't healthy for me this," I said gesturing between us, "isn't working for me, I don't really mean anything to you I'm just a pawn in this game that you're playing. You're messing with my head. Scott was right you are not gonna leave her you are gonna stay with her and leave me here to rot hopelessly because I love you so fucking much even though it hurts and oh my word it hurts. But yet and still I'm here willing to lose myself in this thing we have. Belittle myself when it comes to you and all I get is lies. You don't love me you don't care about me you never have and you never will. Derek I cant anymore I am way over done with this you could have from the beginning of all this said you just wanted a fling but you didn't and you let me fall for you." I said crying. "Stiles I do love you, you just gotta trust me on this ok. And forget anything that Scott says disregard anything he is just jealous of what we have because I have you and you have me and that's all we need he doesn't understand that." "No you have money and a family and people who love you and to top that all off you have a crazy man lusting after you." "Stiles what are you saying." " I don't want to deal with this anymore.  I'm nothing more than a booty call to you. This is over." I said walking into my house and slamming the door in his face. "STILES I DO LOVE YOU..." I heard him yell. Soon I heard his truck pull off. I fell to the floor crying... how could I be so fucking stupid. I have to call my best friend