Anne-Maria (Completed)

Math Test Results

Monday went by really slow, and the mast test didn't really help the sick feeling in my stomach. I hoped that I didn't have food poisoning from the sushi place, but I doubt I did. Once the test was placed in front of me, I forgot everything. I was so confused and all my confidence slowly drifted away as I slowly completed the first problem. I knew I was going to fail and I beat myself up for it. I told myself all day that I was a failure, and I even told my friends that I was a failure. They didn't believe that, but their thoughts hadn't changed my mind. 

On Tuesday everyone came to school with smiles. They were all confident in their test grades, bragging about how smart they were and how easy the test was. In math class I put my head on the table and started to feel worse and worse. I failed, I know I failed. I am the only one who had trouble. 

There it was, right in front of me. I hesitated to pick up, but when I did, I was relieved. I passed, barely, but I did! I smiled for so long that It hurt. After class I found Kevin and told him that I passed. Being my friend, he laughed at my solid C and told me that he got an A. I walked away to my next class slowly as he apologized, worried that he might have hurt my feelings, which he did. 

I struggle so much to get good grades, yet it is so easy for people like him, I don't get it. I kicked the door outside of my next class and waited. I looked around and remembered how much I had missed my middle school. High school wasn't much of a luxury. We still had wonderful classrooms but the lunch was disgusting. Sometimes I think that it is human meat I am eating, but that doesn't help my already queasy stomach. 

This girl was pushed back onto me and she turned quickly to apologize. She had blonde curly hair that was messy, but perfect at the same time. She looked really familiar once I caught a glimpse of her face. 

"Jessie!" I said, excited that Jessie was at my school, which I had never really noticed. She didn't really respond to my greeting. She stopped herself from apologizing and moved up in the line outside of my World History class. I sighed and continued to kick the dirt, wishing I had more friends at this high school. 

Tuesday went by faster than Monday, which was good. I was at ease once I got home after remembering that I had no homework. On Wednesday we were going to visit two colleges, which was fine with me. As long as we weren't in school. 

I ate dinner quietly, talking to myself every once in a while. I was really lonely everyday, due to my parents being at work more than usual. We are pretty tight on money so my parents were working hard. I washed my own dishes and walked up to take a quick shower then sleep. 

I had trouble sleeping, worrying about my parents getting home too late. Luckily I fell asleep around eleven P.M.