Lifeless [ #wattys2016]

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The next morning things are still the same. Tara still doesn't talk much and I don't think she even realizes she is wearing odd socks or the state of her hair. This has been going on for some time now ever since we left her shack or more politely her home. The thought of telling her we are going to the next town over  is always swirling on the tip of my tongue a waiting to come out. But how can I phrase it in a way that is subtle and not such a surprise. Like her flower, she is fragile and I need to be cautious. Otherwise she could break into tiny little pieces and how would I be able to fix that mess.

He's staring. Those ocean eyes are just staring. It's not the usual stare either. It's the look into your soul type. Luckily there's nothing to find down there. I'm an empty shell. Even emptier than when I woke up and I couldn't find my parents. I have been having nightmares lately. It's the same one. I keep thinking that I'm not going to find the answers to my questions and that I will remain clueless.  Voices swarm my mind attacking me with their lullaby like voices saying "You will never know" repeatedly.  I wake up with sweat dripping down my back and clothes clinging to my body and my eyes wide awake. I never scream though and that's the scariest part, not being able to show how much it is affecting me; like the voices take my voice away from me.

Aiden doesn't need to know this. I know he's worried for my wellbeing already from everything that's happened lately and the fact that he treats me like a china set. I need to act like I'm okay. Not just for his sake either.  What better way to do so by smiling. They say smiling is the best cure I think. Can smiling really help in my case? Can it keep me from breaking?

whilst eating lunch the both of us too absorbed in our food to talk  Aiden clears his throat and  says "We're going to the next town over." He exhales a large breath meaning he has been wanting to say that for a while. Just like that he springs this information onto me. I freeze. I can feel my nerves freezing ... my blood stop.

The only thing that doesn't stop is my heart and it's erratic beating.

He knew this information and withheld it from me! I thought...

I was starting to think I could .... trust him.

Oh how I was wrong. My anger gets the best of me and I charge full speed towards him. Like a drug dealer on crack I go to attack. I swing for him , skin to skin contact and I cannot stop, I don't think I'm even angry at him anymore I think its the overwhelming emotions from everything that makes me go berserk. Each swing I take at him , he doges making me more angrier! Each kick I try to make he anticipates and moves before I get to hurt him fuelling my emotions even more ! Till I can't do it anymore , till I can't fight no more. My ragged breathing is the only thing that is heard. He steps closer to me and tries to touch me but I flinch away and look him dead in eye and say " Let's go".

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Hey guys I am back !

I know its been a very long time and I am sorry. I have just started sixth form and the work load is no joke that it leads me no time to update.

I can't promise ill update regularly but I'll try to.

If you are reading this book please just comment so I know someone Is interested.

So what do you think will happen next. find out in the next chapter :)

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signed: Precious