Lifeless [ #wattys2016]

This moment

Please start this song when Tara enters Aiden's room. its quite short so you ,ay have to replay it :)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Monday 17:00pm

Dear Tara, I am not going to be in this world for very long.  I know you are strong. You have always been a strong determined girl. I remember the time when you cut your knee outside and you came to me with no tears in your eyes. I was so proud even though I never said it. Remember what you said? You said that tears should only be shed on happy occasions, I almost burst out with tears when you said that. Well I want you to always remember that, even when times are tough and you want to break down. I want you to be strong. There comes a time when parents cannot stay with their children forever. And that is what is happening to me and your dad. We are going to fight the evil that is about to come into our world. But we love you my sweet. -Love mum

Wednesday 18:40pm

Dear Tara, people are getting more tense as the days go by. Food is scarce, plants are becoming deceased and our population is decreasing. But every time I see your face and your wild curly hair I have a reason to smile. A reason to fight. -Love mum

Friday 20:00pm

Dear Tara, this is the day. The day that you probably won't see me again. As I am watching you play with your father in the garden my heart constricts. Life is full of oxymoron's. I am trying , trying so hard to keep it together in front of you. In front of your dad. But I want to break down. I want to spill all my emotions on to the floor. Todays the day I am not going to see you grow up into a beautiful woman. I am so sorry. Sorry that I am going to miss every stage of your life. But there is evil in this world. Bad people want to corrupt the world. They want to take over the good and poison it. I won't let them get to you. Many things are dying but I have this flower that I saved inside a book to keep it safe. It's a reminder that goodness and pureness can survive and now it is yours. -Love mum

After reading all those letters I felt that numb feeling I had once before. I welcomed it. Those letters were the last words my mother ever said to me. The flower that I have been wondering about it was hers. A little piece of her has been guiding me. That explains why I am so attached to it.  I walk around suddenly finding myself at Ava's door. I knocked sternly at the white coloured oak door. She looked like she just woke up but I didn't have it in me to feel bad. It's the numb feeling.

"It's been a while." She says quietly

"Yeah". I reply

"I can explain. About everything." She says in a pleading tone

"Explain"I say

"What I said in the house. I thought I meant it. But after I saw the damage all my words did to everyone I didn't. I thought by saying those things it would make my master happy and I would get to see my family again. – she looks away from my face and stares at the floor. I don't feel any ounce of pity for her. But when everyone started fighting, he didn't even try protect me and when I saw you in the tank of water drowning (she stops for a moment maybe thinking about the event) I just want to say sorry". she says quietly

I stare at her for a good 10 seconds before saying anything. "I don't feel sorry for you. I am more disappointed in you. We let you in. we didn't have to but we did,And you turned against us in a heartbeat. Forgiving you is going to take time. But I am kind so you will remain in this house. That is all I have to say."

I turn to walk out –

"Thank you" she says softly

I nod and leave.

I go to Aiden's room where I know he'll be. I step in to see its dark and an old song is playing. I see his figure in his bed and crawl in next to him. He turns too look at me and his eyes tell me everything. I tell him how I just had a conversation with Ava. I felt since we are going to live in the same house I need to get everything off my chest. He simply nods.

I do something daring. And if you had told me couple months ago that I would be doing this. I would have laughed. But seeing with our circumstances this act seems natural, and he is the only person that I am close with. I grasp his hand into mine and hold on it tight. His rough texture against my smooth palm. This feels right. He doesn't move his hand from mine. He doesn't elaborate on the music playing with the lyrics floating in the air. And I don't push him.

I do another daring thing. I kiss his cheek. I let my lips linger there, inhaling is musky scent and then I return to my former position. I don't feel sparks instead I felt electric volts, transporting me to the first time I was injured in emergency room and he was helping me with my knuckles. I smile at him the courageous feeling gradually leaving my body. My kiss must have woken up something in Aiden because he grabs my face gently and pulls it towards his. Before our lips connect he whispers "I have been wanting to do this forever" then our lips lock and the little electric volts I felt intensify and parts of my body wake up. The feeling is indescribable. Instead of seeing black behind my closed eye lids I see bursts of colour. I gingerly touch his soft silky hair, then my hands rest at his face which is surprisingly smooth, as for our legs they are tangled like a knot. Both of us take our time. Both of us savour each other. I nibble and licked his lips whilst he pulled and tugged on mine. His hands never leave my face but sometimes they slip into my wild untamed hair and get trapped in there. Even when I can feel myself needing more oxygen I didn't break the kiss because I am scared we may never get this intimate again. He tastes of mint and the music playing just heightens everything.

But alas good things do come to an end and needing to breathe is more important than kissing.

We both stare at each other. My chest heaving up and down. " Well I must have done something right for you to be breathing that hard." He says smugly

Since I am in a state where I cannot form correct sentence I laugh instead. His hand finds mine and our foreheads are against each other.

And I think to myself this moment will forever be ours.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-..-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.

Authors note:

hey guys another update woop

am I consistent or what?

I have recently entered the wattys2016 so please vote and comment as they will help a lot. Also share it so others know about this book.

comment , vote and share means a lot

what do you think about the music , and the kiss scene. comment please

till next time

signed precious