Lifeless [ #wattys2016]

off we go

Today was the day. This is day that we are going to return Justin and see what waits for us. The tingles in my fingers were a mixture of fear and excitement. The bobbing of my leg was from the unknown waiting for us. The frown on my face was from the constant worry of whether we would make it out or not. I contacted Fred early this morning to see if he was ready and had everyone prepared. He seemed ready and excited. which made the worry I felt go away for a bit.

Walking down to Ava's room I knock to see if she's awake and if she what she wants for breakfast.

"Ava you awake?" I whisper. Instead of hearing a response I hear her talking to someone. As if she is on the phone to someone. That's odd. I don't remember giving her a phone. Nor do I remember Tara handing her one either. I open the door and see Ava quickly hide the phone. I look at her for a long time.

"Who was you talking to on the phone?" I inquire

She quickly responds with "no one."

I then ask "Where did you get the phone from?"

"Oh didn't Tara tell you? She gave me this because of the break-in, she wants us all to have a phone so it is easy for us to be in contact with each other." She says

Well that does sound like a thing Tara would do. I just wish she would inform me first. With a scratch of my forehead I ask her what she would like for breakfast which she responds with an English breakfast. Sounds fitting for today's events. Then I leave the room with an unsettling feeling in my stomach.

I look in the mirror in my room and look at myself. Like I really look at myself. My eyes are still mocha brown, my hair still a curly kinky mess and my brown skin glistening. Yet I don't feel any of these nice attributes that make me. me. I feel likes I am the cause of everything. From the day I bumped into Aiden everything has been spiraling out of my control. Something isn't right I can feel it in the air. I quickly grasp my flower for its comfort but nothing comes. I look at it. I look and look and look. Yet it doesn't stop the unsettling feeling that I feel. My hands are trembling, my leg bouncing uncontrollably and tears that I haven't shed in so long wanting to spill. Normally my flower gives me comfort sometimes energy. Yet this time it feels limp. Resting my head on the cold glass of my mirror I close my eyes.

I silently make a prayer to the God. I never was religious. It never occurred to me that I would need to pray, but today and with its unknown events, praying seems right. But how does one with no religion pray? Will he even get my prayer when thousands are sent to him? What makes mine important?

Even with these thoughts I still pray. I pray that nothing happens to Aiden. Nothing happens to Ava. Nothing happens to the rest of the team. And lastly nothing happens to me or my flower. We have been through so much. And all we want are some answers. I want to know what happened to my parents. Is that too much to ask for? A knock on my door snaps me out of my depressing thoughts and I quickly regain control of myself. I won't show weakness.

"Come in" I squeak (I silently curse myself)

Aiden then lets himself in and stares at me. The feeling making me uncomfortable. He seems to wake up from whatever he was thinking about.

"You ready?" He says I get the feeling that it has a double meaning

"Ready as in I'm dresses for the occasion or ready to face battle and death" I chuckle

He chuckles "I see your humour hasn't left."

His expression changes to serious and he comes up to me . He takes a laboured breath which has my insides turning. "Look today we are going to see and hear many revelations that will take its toll on us. So just promise me that you won't let it get to your head and promise me that you won't do anything that will get you hurt because I ... I..." he says hopelessly not finishing the sentence

I look at him. I know he wants me to promise and I know he wants me to say yes. But then I'd be lying. "Aiden I... I... don't promise." I say in a whisper and I walk out the door leaving him behind.

Breakfast was quiet no one saying a word, all you can hear is the sounds of the silver wear. I look at Aiden but he avoids me. I should be happy that we aren't speaking. I should be happy that I pushed him away isn't that he was discussing with Fred on the phone anyways. But it just makes me sadder. I did it to myself. So I guess I have to suck it up. I then look to Ava who looks ready to go so I excuse myself and say I'm getting Justin. Ava quickly jumps up and asks to come with. At this point I don't see the point of saying no. I hold her hand and take her down to the basement. Before we enter I tell her not to get creeped out or scared; that I am right here and I am not going anywhere. She nods and I open the day.

The interaction between Ava and Justin was a bit weird. I thought she would be scared and hide behind me. But she looked at Justin like she knew him from somewhere. But he just avoided her look and looked at me.

"Here to take me are we?" He says

"Yeah. Just when I was beginning to like you. It's a shame really. I say faking sadness

"Next time try knocking on the door first. It's more polite" I say whilst laughing

He chuckles and stands up. I check him to see if he has any weapons. Once done we go up to the living room.

"What don't trust me?" he mockingly says

"Well you did break-in remember?" I say

"Ah memories." He says fondly

Tara has come back up with Justin and Ava and I quickly usher them into the car. The words Tara said still swarm in my head. I get the feeling she might do something. The worst part is not knowing what. As I look back I try to memorize what we all look like. The chatter buzzing throughout the car and the laughter. Who knows when we will be like this again?

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authors note

hey guys hope you like the book so far. and hope it isn't boring . comment what you think is going to happen next. or what you would like to happen next.

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