Lifeless [ #wattys2016]

Is this heaven?

I wake up in a room that isn't Aiden's house. Everything is white like heaven. I hear a faint beep ... beep... beep and look to my left to see a monitor I guess this isn't heaven. I try to get up but suddenly fall back into the uncomfortable bed. I look around and see Aiden sleeping uncomfortably on the chair and a little drool coming out of his face. I try to stifle a laugh at the way he looks which doesn't seem to work as he wakes up in full action, alert as ever. When he sees me his whole face changes to concern. A sudden strange feeling has embedded its way into my heart. He comes up to me cautiously, like I am a zoo animal that hasn't been seen before. He takes his arms out almost to touch me but quickly puts them down like the idea is ludicrous. A disappointed feeling worms it way into me but I quickly push it down. It isn't like we are friends far from it.

She's awake. I have known for some time now. I have been pretending to sleep so she could get accustomed to her surroundings. Yesterday night was very hectic. The memory is very fresh in my mind. Me picking up Tara effortlessly and running to the emergency room we have. It's very small and can only  fit 1 or 2 people max.  Seeing Tara in basic clothing showed me how vulnerable she really is. Her fragile body just laying here. The many stories each finger held, each scent she has smelled, each thing she saw and I so badly wanted to be the one she tells these to. Seeing her smile whilst she was out cold shocked me, it showed me just how unafraid she was to die.

Another forgotten soul amongst others.

And then I thought I not only have to find out what happened to our world but also I have to show Tara the true meaning of life.

I heard her giggle for the first time in that moment. The sound very foreign to me ears and hers since she cut it off immediately. She was holding back, from what I didn't know. She always held back. Like if she showed any emotion it was a crime. I  snapped out of my thoughts when I felt her staring at me ; I got up and saw her and that was when my heart picked up all questions that flooded me ; is she okay? Does anything hurt? I went to reach out for her , just to touch her arm  but I thought against it. A look of disappointment flashed on her face but It was gone as soon as it came.

Instead I just sat next to her not putting all my weight on the bed and we talked. In that moment everything felt as normal as it could be. As if we wasn't only two strangers that only met, but two friends.

Till she asked the question.

"Where's my flower?" She whispered whilst twiddling with her fingers a habit I noticed she did.

"I ... I don't know, in all the commotion you must have dropped it and my main piroity was you." I said. I couldn't look in her eyes afraid of the emotion that would be awaiting me.

He sat on the edge of the bed and even then he wasn't putting all of his weight on it. I studied him then. How his eyes changed colour due to the lighting of the room. How his clothes were wrinkled , how his coral pink lips seemed even more plump if that's possible. We chatted and it was like we forgot we were strangers , there was no awkward pauses or silences. I then asked the question that was weighing me down.

"Where is my flower?" I whispered.

He looked down and shrugging his shoulders.

He didn't know.

I didn't want to panic. I willed my body to calm down. Stay clam I chanted over and over again.

I asked calmly taking a huge breath through my noise. "where is my flower?" my hands were twitching I so badly wanted to stuff my hand into my mouth. To get up and start pacing around the room. But I didn't , just stayed on the bed staring at him waiting for him to say this is a joke that he hid it.

It didn't happen.

Her face when I told her I didn't know where the flower was almost broke me. I wanted to so desperately say something to erase the sadness on her face. Luckily  Fred burst through the door holding something , giving us a distraction. The impact scared Tara so much the monitor went off like crazy. I tried calming her down and it worked a little bit. Whilst Fred kept saying "Guys look, guys look." he was holding Tara's flower. Her face lit up like she wasn't sad just 10 seconds ago. She sprung up from her position and took the flower like it was her baby. I mouthed a thank you to Freddy who took a bow and waved and left the room.

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authors note:

I'm back guys with a new update woo. We now know that Tara is okay if any of you where concerned.also I think her and Aiden are starting to become friends what do you guys think. what do you guys think of Tara and her flower ? do you think it's silly? do you think its important? tell me your thoughts in the comment section and what else other things do you think they will find out along the way.

Do you guys feel any romance ? what do you lot think of Fred?

please comment , vote you know the usual. please make yourself known if you are reading my book and I really appreciate you lots support and the fact that you are reading it, it means a lot to me:) huge thank you.

signed: Precious