hard choices // l.h

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when i woke up, we were on the road. i herd some voices in the from of the bus probably where everyone was. i take in a breath the look to my left to find lukes body next to me. my body clenched. did i really feel save? luke probably doesnt remember last night so i just decided not to bring it up today. if it does come
up ill just change the subject before something bad starts off the 6 month tour.

i slowly tried to get up and find my phone but turns out luke wasnt sleeping. he just shut his eyes. which i dont get. "good morning." he whispered with a smile. i attempted to smile in return but it turned into a crooked awkward smile. smooth ev. "hey." i streched. "what happened last night." luke said as he pulled me over closer to him. "i had a lot to drink.. im sorry." he chuckled slightly.

"its okay." i squeaked. "you were celebrating. i dont blame you." luke holds me closer then kisses my forhead. my heart warms up. "im hungry." i pout and whine at the same time making luke chuckle. "well, somebody got doughnuts for a special someone this morning.." luke smirked as he saw my face light up because he was very aware of my love for doughnuts.

"i love you." i sighed then pecked his lips and snuggled him closer. "i love you more. lets go get you a doughnut." i smiled then quickly got up luke grabbed my hand and led me out to the sitting area of the huge ass bus. i was welcomed by lots of 'goodmornings.' i smiled then sat down on one of the empty seats next to ashton.

luke grabbed me a doughnut and a napkin then gave it to me and sat down next to me. he put his arm around me then we turned and listened to what the other guys were talking about. "yeah where did you go last night e? we were looking all over for you." michael asked as everyones attention landed on me, the one who literally just woke up. i finished chewing my bite of the doughnut i had that was filled in my mouth.

i swallowed hard then rubbed my eye awkwardly. i really needed help right now. i nervously looked at calum briefly, then down at my long skinny fingers. "i um... i.." my body clenched up. "she needed to get some air, then she forgot her phone in the bus and she felt tired so she took a nap and forgot about us." calum said quickly. ashton chuckled. "she can talk cal."

then ashton looked at me. "is that what happened? or is calum messing with us?" ashton bellowed again. i nodded then smiled awkwardly. i couldnt talk. i felt like i was frozen. why did he save me? did he really remember everything? did he really have one drink? maybe he wasnt lying to me about the drinking problem..

i felt a wave of confusion soar over and all around my body. i have to talk to him. "y-yeah thats what happened. sorry i had something in my throat.." i coughed then i walked to the back of the tour bus and sat down as my head pounded with thoughts as i held my head.

the door opened quietly but still startling me as i shot my head up to see the person who was entering the room. it was calum. roght as he saw me he placed his pointer finger in front of his lips, gesturing for me not to speak. i obeyed and sat ther quietly watching his actions as he quietly took a seat next to me.

he faced me then the glanced at ground, ths ground then back at me with a solid look in his chocolate eyes. "why did you save me?" i ever so spoke as i broke the silence and stared at my figiting hands once more. "because you were obviously struggling." he harshly spoke which caught me by surprise. ive never herd one harsh sentence come out of innocent sweet calum's mouth.

i scoffed then sat back into the couch chair lounge thing i was sitting on. "well its fucking true isnt it? you were all red and you were figiting, thinking hard about probably about some terrible excuse that they wouldnt belive." calum spat as he sat there looking at his fingers. i just stared blankly knowing that he was probably right. i sighed then rubbed my face.

"thanks." i said as i got up to leave. maybe this wasnt a good idea hoping it was calum that walked into the lounge. an arm grabbed my wrist and pulled me back which made me fall onto his lap. i was shocked but i kept silent. i swallowed hard. "you're welcome.." he quietly whispered as he glared into my eyes harshly. i scoffed again then got up abruptly then stormed off to find my boyfriend.

i swung open the door and ran into lukes strong chest. i almost fell back but he caught me before i hit the ground. "woah, hey.. are you okay love? you look flustered.." i shook my head then looked at lukes concerned eyes, the same eyes that i saw last night. my stomach was tight, once again.

"yeah.. sorry im.. im tired.." i breathed. "come sit down with me." luke said as he took my hand and brought me over to the seat that was opened. i sighed then shut my eyes and rubbed my temples. "are you really okay? are you car sick? because i can help you. i always get carsick-" "no luke. im just... im tired. im sorry." "its okay.." he whispered as he rubbed my back. after a moment, he slowly took my hand then guided me to his bunk where he layed me down and cuddled and listened to one of lukes soft playlists as we slowly drifted off to sleep.

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hey guys, thanks for reading. this chapter was kinda weird and short and idk about it. im not really focused right now anyway because im watching walking dead 😂 but tell me feedback. more chapters comming soon :) -luci xxo