hard choices // l.h

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i got out of bed then unplugged my phone. i walked to the bathroom and lazily stuck my hair into a messy bun then walked out and into the living room. i walked over to the door and grabbed my beat up converse and slipped them on over my black socks.

i threw my thin jacket on then walked out into the cold brisk winter air. it was still fall but the brodcast said it was going to snow today.

i walked down and into my car. i plugged the key into the keyhole then started the ignition. i sat there and waited for it to star warming up.

what i was about to do will change a big part of my life. am i really ready to do this again?

Luke
i woke up and my first thought was her. i closed my eyes again and pictured her smile. i herd her laugh in my head. those were the times when we were all happy. especially her and i.

i opened my eyes then sighed. i sighed knowing that i will probably never get that image of her back. ill never get to hold her in my arms. i'll never get to see her eyes when shes super excited or having the time of her life. i'll never see her next to myside in bed ever again.

this is going to be harder then i thought it would be.

i snapped out of thought to the horrific loud sound comming from my phone on my nightstand. i rolled over and looked at it.

my eyes widened quickly at the name i read that was appearing across the screen. i quickly jumped out of bed and answered the phone. i was alarmed to the sound in her voice.

"hello?" i asked groggily into the phone.

"hey. um its me." she said, sounding dull and sad.

"whats wrong?" i asked wearily through the phone.

"nothing i just, um, i wanna talk to you."

"um okay.." i awkwardly said.

"do u think you could maybe open your door? its kinda cold out.." she chuckled a little on the other line.

"what the hell Ev." i laughed slightly. then i hung up and set my phone down on a table. i walked quickly but quietly to the front door and opened it. she looked up at me with her pink nose and pink cheeks, shivering in the cold brisk air.

i steped out and guided her inside quietly. She took off her jacket then held it in her arms. "i can take that if you want." i offered but she shook her head. "im not staying long.." she whispered. i awkwardly stood there in front of her then she took a deep breath.

"what im about to say, is a lot so dont answer me until im finished." i nodded then she continued. "throughout the past few months, ive been very confused with my life. sometimes i dont even know if im handling it at all. but i have my friends to keep me going. often times i would cry myself to sleep because i felt so alone. i would think of you. all those nights i would think about you and how it felt to be in your arms again and it was a bad idea because it just made me cry more. then i relised that i needed you. you are the person i need in my life to make me complete. my friends are just half a puzzle piece. you are the other half. Lucas you make me laugh when i dont want to. you make me happy in my dullest moments. you make me love you more just by smiling and you just make me complete, like ive said before. i know i lot of people would die to be me right now and have my place so im not going to put your love to waste. i dont need some random guy i ranted to about my problems in a bar to make me feel happy. i need you. but then again, you did hurt me. you hurt me with your words and im really trying to believe that you didnt mean them because from what i saw, you were happy when you were with me. you looked like you genually loved me and im was so happy to know that. but when you said those words i knew something wasnt right. so i forgive you luke hemmings, and im willing to give you another shot at making me happy again. like the good old days when we were having the time of our lives."

i looked at her with tears in my eyes as she did the same. but in her eyes she searched for an answer. i didnt know what to say so i just hugged her.

once our bodies touched once again, i knew she was the most perfect person for me. Evelyn is my one and only and i solemly swear not to mess this chance up. "i love you." i muffled into her neck as i felt wet tears drop silently onto my tshirt. "i love you too luke." she responded.

she doesnt know how long ive been waiting for those words.