hard choices // l.h

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thats evelyn ^
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once we all went around once, we moved to the lounge area then played more. so far we've been playing for over an hour. and honestly its really fun. ive gotten to learn more about they guys actually. and a little more about luke that i never knew. like if he were a girl, he would date ashton over calum. which caused a fued of course. but me and michael just laughed our asses off as they faught.

"okay now ashton we start again with you." i said as i watched calum take a beer from luke. he had a secret stash in the back of the fridge so he gave them some. i learned to deal with it. luke asked me before if it was okay and i said it was. i dont want to limit him from his drinking just because i cant. "okay ev, truth or dare." ashton asked as he took a swig of beer.

"dare." i said confidently. "okay i dare you to intemently, kiss calum.. with tongue.." he smirked wildly as my eyes widened and i nearly choked on my own spit. "no." i laughed as i felt the warmth start to crawl upon my soft cheeks. i put a strip of my long soft golden har behind my ear.

"no ash too far.." luke laughed. "calum wouldnt like it anyway.." he took a sip of beer thinking he was funny. little prick. my jaw opened then i nudged his strong arm lightly. "im okay with it.." calum said proudly.

"cmon kiss him." michael groaned along did ashton. "just... DO IT!" ashton cracked up uncontrolably. my face was burning as i couldnt help but laugh myself. i looked at calum. he glared back at me with that devilish smile again. he shrugged then took a sip of water.

i gave in. i didnt want to be the 'party pooper.' because i used to be when i started to stop drinking. my friends would make fun of me because they didnt really know about my problem. i only told bryana and luke.. now calum i guess.

"fine." i groaned. my head didnt feel right. my stomache flip flopped and my heart was beating uncontrolably. i really didnt wanna do this. i slowly got up and walked over and sat on calums lap. michael, ashton, and luke all yodeled and hollared. i took a deep breath as i kept my stare in lock with calums soft pink face which still had an enormus grin, spreading from ear to ear. he raised his eyebrows then gently grabbed my waist.

"we dont have to do this if you dont want to.." he whispered, barely audiable because of the assholes behind me. "its a little late for that.." i whispered in a matter-of-factly tone. he just smiled then nodded at me as if to ask if i was ready.

i smirked slightly then nodded back taking in another deep breath. we both leaned in and i clamped my eyes shut. we finally connected lips then from there on it was all a blur. it felt so wrong. so so so wrong. but in the right way. calums hands ran up my back as we got deeper into the kiss. then i could feel him slightly pulling away. i grabbed his jaws then brought him back onto me. what was i doing? i could feel him smile as his lips were pressed into mine. then when i came back into reality i abruptly pulled away. i looked at calums gaze as it filled my eyes with lust, and pleasure. my stomach was doing flips still and my heart was probably not even beating anymore. his lips were red and swollen as he bit them and smiled at me.

our faces were reddening deeper and deeper by each second that passed by. i got up off of his lap, which didnt feel the same when i first sat down. if you know what i mean. then i walked confidently over back to my spot next to luke, across from that shitface calum.

okay, for the record, it was an amazing kiss. but im trying to forget about it as hard as i can because im dating luke. luke grabbed me as they all were yelling and screaming and dying of laughter. never again.