hard choices // l.h

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After a few months of touring, ive learned so much. So much about the boys. So much about their music and why they wrote them. Just so much i never knew before.

Every single night, these 4 dudes played their heart out and im just gonna say, i could never.. Ever.. Do what they do every day. Incredible.

Along this tour ive actually grown respect for them. They have for me too, at least i think.

Ashton texts me everyday and asks how i am.

Calum is always hanging out with luke so i see him everyday and we play fifa together.

Michael just adores me every time i see him. He wont stop talking to me.

Its been much better then last year. Im super glad. And so is luke.

Luke
I dont know whats happening with me. But whatever it is i hate it. you would think i was the happiest man in the world. im touring with my bestfriends playing great music. along with my love right beside me. but i dont know if this is right for me. i dont feel the same when i look out into the crowds of screaming sobbing fans. i used to have this rush of pure happiness and adrenaline pumping in my heart and veins. but i just dont feel like that anymore. maybe im just overwhelmed. at least the tour's over for a while and we can go back home and write some more music. ill definatly have a lot to put on paper from the past year.

today we all arrived at home and i wanted to bring Evelyn with me. Shes met my parents before but its just been so long and my mom knows about the whole break spit up thing so my mom will be happy to know we're back and better than before.

i went to pick up evelyn from the airport. she flew in a little after us because she had to go home and get her things situated. i havent seen her for like half a week so im excited to see her again. its funny, you'd think id be sick of her but suprisingly im not. and i think thats great for the relationship in my opinion.

so i got into my mums car and drove down to the airport where my love was waiting for me to pick her up. i decided to get her a caribou and some flowers because im just that great of a boyfriend.

once i arrived i pulled up into a prking spot then hurried out and into the big building full of people. i looked around to see if i could find her but i didnt have any luck so i decided to call her.

she didnt pick up so i was thinking she had her phone on silent from the plane ride. i kept lookig for a bit then i texted her asking where she was.

by now its been about half an hour and i know for a fact she was in the building because her plane was supposed to land half an hour ago so i got sorta worried. i decided to ask a lady at the desk if her plane had landed, just so i was sure. she said it had some complications with a passenger so they had to land at the closest airport possible. luckily they were in australia.

"do you know who the passenger was?" i asked the lady. "im not sure. i could find out though if you think its somebody you were waiting for." "yes could you please. thank you."

i walked off to the side where i found a bench where i sat. i waited an extra 20 minutes until the lady had any answer.

"sir, i have information on the girl who was on the plane." she said as she motioned me over to the desk. i hurried over. "its a girl? um who was it.." i asked impatiantly.

"her name is Evelyn Johnson. Do you know her?" my heart sank into my chest.

"Um yes yes i do shes my girlfriend. What happened to her?" i studdered as my heart raced. "She stopped breathing on the plane but thats all i know sir im very sorry. They rushed her to Sydney Hospital down a few blocks from here."

i ran from the desk as fast as i could out to the doors and into the parking lot and into my car. i couldnt think nor speak or even breath. My Evelyn..