hard choices // l.h

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TIP: this song above ^^ reminds me so much of this fanfic. so when you listen to it, think about Evelyn, Luke, and Calum.

thanks again for reading :) -Luci
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"can i uhm.. talk to you.." luke asked quietly, taking me by surprise. my stomach flipped and flopped inside. what was he gonna say to me? i mean, we're over right? maybe thats what he wants to talk about... i gave a quick glance over to calum who was looking back at me with worry in his eyes. then i slowly got up and followed luke to outside of our room and into the hall.

i took a deep breath as i shut the door quietly, then looked up at lukes saddened face. he breathed in then started talking. "we have to talk about this evelyn." luke said wit dark eyes staring deep into my heart. i nodded silently then looked at my non-interesting fingers. to be honest, i really didnt wanna talk about it. but yet i knew i had too. "who do you love evelyn..?" luke whispered after a few moments of awkward silents. i looked up at him and he had tears in his red eyes. this was the question ive been avoiding ever since this whole mess started.

i took another deep breath as tears started to form in my eyes. "i dont know." i whispered quietly. "i wont freak out evelyn just tell me." he cracked up as a single tear dripped down his pale scruffy face. my heart broke even more than it was before. if thats even possible. i sighed as tears clouded my vision in front of me. "i love you.." i broke out as well, trying to keep cool so hard.

"stop lying to me." luke cried. "im not!" i spoke in a raspy voice. "then you're lying to yourself." he wiped his face then dug his hands into his pockets and took a breath. "luke im confused and i honestly dont even know who i am anymore. the fans hate me, im pretty sure michael hates me, you hate me.." i cried more. "im sorry its just, you cheated on me! how am i supposed to act?! i just dont want to waste my time on stupid problems like this. so do you love me or not?" he whispered. i stood in front of a heartless giant as i watched him stomp on my heart, flattening the broken pieces and breaking them even more. it was as if i couldnt speak. like i lost my voice and my breath was gone. i couldnt think straight. all i could do was walk.

i walked all the way down to the main lobby and i left the hotel, sobbing like a freak. everything felt like a blur. all i could think of to do was walk away. as far as i could.

after a while of walking the lonely streets of chicago, i came across a bar. my head pounded of thoughts. swormed with rage mixed with hate and sadness. this was my only option right now. well, that i could think of..

calum:
luke walked back into the room, wiping his eyes. i assume he was crying. "what happened?" i asked in a deep voice. "you're new girlfriend ran away." he spat then went into the bathroom and slammed the door shut. my mind was furrowing with thoughts. i almost couldnt breath. i got my jacket on then ran out into the hall. i heard ashton yelling after me but i blurred him out of my mind. all i could think of, was where evelyn was and gettin her back somehow. i dont care if it takes all night to find her. we arent leaving without her.

my heart wouldnt stop pounding in my chest. my hand was shaking and my body was cold. i speed walked down the sidewalk, bumping into people and moving them out of the way. once my head started to fill with horrid thoughts, i stared running. running as fast as i could. i tried to calm down and actually think about where she could be.

after running for 20 minutes, i stoped and thought hard. what did luke say to her that made her rub off? did he hurt her? no luke wouldnt. he wouldnt hurt a fly. as i caught my breath, i looked around for any sight of her. nothing. worry started to fill my head. my emotions were off the charts. i had no clue what to do so i went into this random store and asked them if they saw her.

nothing.

i started to panic. my heart was racing and my mind was blowling up. "think think think calum. think!" i whispered to myself in frustration. i took another glance around me then i found a bar. my heart literally stopped. she cant be. she wouldnt. where else would she be though? i took a deep shaky breath then i made my way across the street and walked into the bar. it was packed with didnt help at all. i looked around for a long time then i decided to just ask someone.

"excuse me!? have you seen a girl with golden brown long hair? she was about 5'6 and she was wearing a sweatshirt and black sweat pants??" i asked the bartender hurrily. "um.. was her name ev something?" "yes yes evelyn? was she in here?" i asked impatiently. "i think shes in the bathroom or something. she didnt look too good. she drank.. a lot.." he said as he cleaned the counter. my heart dropped and shattered. nonono. "bathroom?" i asked the bartender. he pointed to the back then i made my way back there. i smashed into the grubby womens bathroom and called out for evelyn. i didnt hear anything then i heard puking sounds. i cringed then i entered the last big stall that was open.

i saw eveyln. i will never forget that image of her face. tears, blood, and puke all over her face. tears filled my eyes before i hurried over to her and held her hair as she began to puke again. once she stopped, i looked at her pale white face then a tear left my eye. "why are you bleeding? are you okay?" i asked quickly as i came closer and wiped her face with toilet paper.

"i-i dont know.." she sobbed. I immediately pulled her over to me so she was in my lap. i leaned up against the graffiti infested white bathroom tile and comforted evelyn as she cried in my arms. "im so sorry this happened.." i whispered into her hair as i kissed her head. once she stopped sobbing and calmed down, she pulled away to look at me with her puffy red eyes.

"i dont know what h-hapened. i remember i fell then i kept drinking and drinking.." she sobbed. "shhh hey its okay. im here. you're safe." i soothed. my heart is aching for this poor girl. stupid luke is making her feel this way and its actually hurting me. it hurts seeing her this way. after all these years of not drinking wasted because of something luke mustve said.

its a shame.