hard choices // l.h

7

"Evelyn? Evelyn?? where are you?" the manager called my name as calum and i froze. i gestured for him to leave and get away so he obeyed and ran back towards the bus. i looked back at him and started to regret everything. i let him take control of me and i didnt stop him. its my fault. i have to end it before this goes outta control for the first week of the tour.

i walk over to the manager who was calling my name. "sorry i had a call from luke, the lead singer." i said as i put my phone away in my pocket. "wait you know luke?" the manager said in his deep voice. "yeah hes my boyfriend, why?" "why are you out here then? you should be with him." "oh but um, they said they needed me because one of the crew members got sick?" i explained, obviously confused. "oh, well its okay, we've got it from here sweetheart. go get on the bus, its leaving soon." he shooed me away then a bright big smile was planted instantly on my face.

i turned around and ran to the bus. once i got there i knocked on the door because it was locked for some reason. which confused me. "who is it?" a voice asked abruptly from the inside. "uhm evelyn? lukes girlfrie-" before i could say anymore, the door swung open and almost bashed me in the face, luckily it didnt, and the tour bus driver stood there and let me in.

"hello to you too." i mumbled with a chuckle. i made my way to the fridge and grabbed a water then i went to the bunk area where everyone slept. i looked into each bunk but all i saw was michael listening to music and sleeping. im guessing the rest of the band was in the back. so i knocked on the door, just in case they were naked or something, and a tall, tan skinned boy, with scruffy hair, awkwardly opened the door.

"ohm, here.." he mumbled as he steped aside to let me in. my face got red then i crookedly smiled. "Evy!! yay!" the tall blond boy hugged me, still damp with sweat. "hey luke," i chuckled, "you guys played really well tonight." i complemented to the three of the band that were currently in front of me sitting down.

"thanks evelyn. but you dont have to tell us that every night we play.." ashton laughed, along with a slight smirk from calum. "i know i know. i just want you guys to know that you play well. really well." i laughed then took a seat next to luke as he ploped his arm around me and took a swig of water out of his watter bottle.

"we were just talking about you actually." luke smirked then bit his lip for a brief moment. "oh really now," i shifted my seat so i was facin towards the three boys looking at me, blushing. suck losers. "and saying what exactly?" i ventured on into the topic. "just compairing you to B-R-Y-A-N-N-A." luke spelled out.

"you arent going to offend me luke. im fine." ashton chuckled then bit his lip as his face deepened in color. "why were you compairing me? bryana's just as nice as me, maybe even better than me." i chuckled. "no you're way better than bryana." ashton said with an awkward laugh, calum nodded in agreement. i blushed, of course then chuckled. "well thanks but thats not entirely true. i said as i got up. "im gonna put some sweats on ill be right back." i smiled as they nodded at me.

"ill come with you." luke said then got up and caught up with me. by now, we were driving again and now we were driving to an airport that was an hour away so we could fly to Minnesota. that was our next stop. well, they boys' next stop. "i talked to calum." luke quietly spoke as we entered the bathroom together to change. "oh yeah, what did he say?" i asked as i pulled up some sweat pants over my thin thighs. "well he said he was fine but i ventured on and he just said it was complicated." i looked at luke confused by calums words. luke stared into my eyes, with a differnt look then what i was giving him. "what?" i asked. "is there something i dont know here..?" luke asked in almost a whisper. "luke, cmon. if there was i would've told you by now." i lied. "okay. i didnt think there was but im just making sure. hes never acted like this before and it kinda scaring me. maybe you should talk to him because he wont talk to me." luke truthfully spoke as we sat down un the 'kitchen' area as i took drink of water. "okay. ill try right now." i whispered. luke weakly smiled at me and i smiled back. then he pecked my lips and got up to head to the back again.

i took a deep breath before entering the back room. once i entered i herd ashton and calum laugh. i actually herd calums laugh again. and i saw his perfect smile. how dare he make me feel this way. i hate him. "calum can i talk to you." i abruptly asked interupting their laughing like little school girls. "sorry to interupt." i said then i steped out amd waited for him to follow.

"its good to see you smile again.." i whispered as we entered the bathroom. (it was the only private place we could be.) "whats up with you calum?" i asked as i crossed my arms and looked up at him sternly. he just dug his long fingers into his pockets and shrugged, looking down.

"calum..." i sighed, "you have to talk to me please. you've been acting really fucking weird and kissing me out of no where? what the fuck?" "you enjoyed it evelyn. i could tell." he didnt look up at me. i suddenly became discusted with him. "what the hell is wrong with you. what makes you think you can do that? im dating luke calum. i didnt 'enjoy' it either. you forced it on me and my feelings took over.." i trailed off. calum looked at me. "sorry okay. i just.. really like you and its hard to get over you when we're practically living together for the next 6 months ev. i dont know what to do." "you could start by not comming up and kissing me in the middle of nowhere." i rolled my eyes. "sorry. my emotions just took over and i couldnt think straight until i had that kiss from you.." calum sighed then ran his hand through his hair. "it also doesnt help when you and luke make out everytime i see you guys. you dont know how it feels to see that when i have such strong feelings towards you evelyn. its the truth and i cant express it enough. im sorry that i like you okay." he choked then left the bathroom, leaving me breathless and out of though. i sat down, with my jaw still wide open as i processed these words that were thrown at my face.