Pinky Swear

Unsent letter

October 29, 2015

Dear 'babe',

Hi! I hope you're doing good. Wherever you are right now, I hope you're safe.

Uhmm maybe what I'm trying to say is.. I've been thinking about the days we spent together. The days when you'll pick me up in school, we'll watch a movie while im eating a half gallon of ice cream and i wont share. When you take the pickles out of my cheese burger because i dont eat vegies, when you always bring an extra jacket just in case i get cold, when you're making a funny face when i tickle your ear, when you squeeze my face and kiss my lips, when you give me a piggy back ride when im tired to walk, when we eat the sinigang my mommy cooked and keeps on telling her that its the best sinigang you ever tasted like its your first time eating it.

I miss you singing me to sleep, i miss hugging you, i miss smelling your kili kili, haha! I miss your scent, i miss how you run your thumb on my knuckles when we held hands. Its just, i miss you.

No, i dont mean i want us back together. I just miss you. I have so many stories to tell, but i guess i'll tell it to a different person someday.

Dont worry, im doing good. Not great, just good.

For some reasons, i know you too deserve an apology from me. So.. Im sorry.

I still have the things you gave me, except the life sized teddy bear and the promise ring. Mom burned it the moment she find out you cheated on me.

I hope you dont repeat what you did to me to your new girlfriend (s), and i hope you dont experience the pain youve caused me.

By the way, just in case you want to know, i have forgiven you already. I never thought i'd say this but i wish you all the best and ive been praying every night that you'll find the happiness that you've been looking for.

P.S.

I wrote our story not to remember but to forget the moments.. Moments that are now part of my memories..

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Dear younger self,

Hey there, sweetheart! Im sorry I didn't warn you about the pain. But I want you to know that I'm so proud of you. You're going to be a stronger lady someday, that's a promise. You may not figure things out now but soon, you will. Dont be afraid to take the risk. Dont hate yourself, you did the right thing. Its not wrong to take care of yourself first. That doesnt make you selfish, it makes you selfist.

Learn to forgive the people who hurt you because theyre all generous to teach you the art of letting go and forgiveness. Life ain't always gonna be nice. Go after your own peace of mind. No reason to stay is a good reason to go. You know, one day this will hurt a hell of a lot less. Now, let's embrace the point of no return. I love you.

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Dear you,

Yes, you. If you are reading this now, i'd like to say thank you. Whether your heart is happy, sad, broken, incomplete, confuse, etc. I just want you to let God do His work. Surrender Him everything.

Yes, may be forever isnt real. So if youre happy, savor the moment, you dont know when it will end, if youre in pain, it'll get better. Let time heal you. You'll be fine. We're all going to be fine. The thing is.. At least you tried.

If ever you think or feel like youre the most unfortunate, stupid, broken person in the world, think again and look around, may be someone out there is experiencing the same pain that youre feeling right now and that's normal. Pain makes us human but dont let pain eat the person you are. Like the amazing girl named Mika Reyes said, "kill them with kindness".

Be the better person. Always..

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Sending virtual hug to all of you.

Sincerely,

Iya/ Miktionaryo