Pinky Swear

chaser

October 2009

Yeye:

Ang dami ng nangyari in a short period of time. Aside from losing my friends, lying to mom, I lost sa student government, bumaba grades ko, my pep squad only fall second place, mom made me quit sa swimming team because she found out na nagkikita kami ni kiefer after training, and i'm grounded. No laptops, cellphone, allowance and i'm invisible sa bahay. Nobody talks to me. Wow, if this is the punishment for falling in love, ayoko na umulit. The only thing I look forward today is my application for college and Kiefer.

I missed his birthday. No concrete plans because I'm grounded. Mas mahirap makipagcommunicate ngayon. Mom's out today may aasikasuhin syang properties so I took advantage and inform Kuya Perry na I want to invite Kiefer sa bahay, naawa naman sya sakin kaya pinayagan nya ko. I told Kuya na iaabot ko lang kay Kiefer yung application form ko sa ateneo, i cant go out din naman kasi I'm sick. Buti nalang kinakausap pa ko nito. I also ask Yaya Aly to buy a cake for Kiefer and hiniram ko na rin phone nya to text him.

To: 09261052760

Hi babe! Miks here. Nakitext lang ako kay Yaya, mom's out. Punta ka dito pls? Cant go out. I'm sick. See you :*

From: 09261052760

Alright babe. See you!

I'm so excited kasi finally, QT with my bb. I need this, masyado na kong stress. I dont care being sick basta sya mag aalaga sakin.

I heard the door bell na and I told Yaya Aly na ako na magbubukas.

"Hey babe! Tara pasok ka na"

"No na, Miks. Akin na yung form mo, nagmamadali kasi ako"

"Ay ganun, ok, sige, kunin ko lang"

I handed him my form then he left na, wala pa atang 5mins ko syang nakita. Di nya manlang chineck if i'm feeling well na. I end up eating the cake alone and found myself crying. Bakit feeling ko may di magandang mangyayari?

I borrowed Kuya Perry's laptop to be updated. Dinner time na pero wala akong gana. I was in Kiefer's facebook profile when suzy tagged a photo of him.

Its him..

With Ish..

K i s s i n g ..

As much as gusto kong pigilan sarili ko umiyak, I cant. What the hell Kiefer? Why? As of now I really cant handle the pain, everything's turning black..

Again, I woke up with an oxygen tube connected in my nose. Pauly's here with mom and kuya perry. I'm in the hospital. Oh great, Lord sana di mo na ko ginising. I cant talk. Mom looked emotionless when she stares at me.

There's no point staying home, so kahit fresh from hospital, i pushed myself na pumasok. Hahabol ako kahit last subject.

Gusto sana ko ihatid ni Pauly pero i declined. Masyado na sya nadadamay. I was about to go inside my service when kiefer pulled me. Di nya alam na nahospital ako, i dont think na alam nya din na alam ko ginawa nya kahapon. He was teary eyed when he talked..

"Babe.. I dont care kung may makakita satin i just want to talk to you."

"We're talking na. It seem like wala ka ngang paki"

"What do you mean? Mika.. I have to tell you something. Yesterday kasi..."

"Okay, i'll listen. Ano meron kahapon and nagmamadali kang umalis? You didnt even bother checking if im feeling better na"

"I know, im sorry.. Kasi kahapon.. Suzy throw a birthday party for me, I didnt know na andun si Ish. It'll be rude kung papaalisin ko sya. We were drinking and.."

"And then you kissed her?"

"Pano mo nalaman?!"

"Gahd kiefer, di ako tanga. I saw it. Sana kasi hindi ka tina-tag ni suzy. Fine, they thought youre single pero alam mo sa sarili mo na you're not!"

"Mika, its not like that. They wont let me go, chaser yung lips ni Ish.."

"I heard enough, Kiefer. Wag mo na dagdagan. Tama na pls."

"Mika, i love you. It was just a kiss. Forgive me. Di ko alam na nakita mo, kaya nga i went straight to you kasi ayoko magsinungaling sayo. Dont leave me babe pls"

We're both crying na pero ang alam ko lang ngayon nasasaktan ako..

"Just a kiss, kiefer? JUST?! You know how important kisses for me, kief. Kung wala lang yun sayo, big deal sakin yun! Ganyan ka ba talaga? Kung sino sino lang kinikiss mo? Tama na kief. I lost my friends, mom, my passion, sabi ko okay lang, kasi i have you naman pero it turns out na wala ka na rin pala. Wag mo na ko saktan kief, kung si ish ang gusto mo. Magsama kayo. Sya naman nauna diba? Bye kiefer."

I walked away crying and bumped to Pauly. I told him what happened and anger is evident in his eyes. Sa kanya nalang ako sumabay, my heart needs a break. Literally..

The next day, Ish approached me sa canteen. I dont want to see her pero super impossible because one school lang kami..

"Ye, can we pls talk?"

"What for?"

"About kiefer"

"What about him?"

"It was my fault"

"Oh.. Nagsumbong pala sayo ex boyfriend ko? You heard it right, Ish. EX boyfriend. FOR REAL. You happy now?"

"No"

"Then you should"

"No, i cant. Lalo na alam ko you're both hurting. Di naman ako salbahe, Ye. I admit, nainggit ako sa effort na binibigay nya sayo, i wonder what if naging kami? Naging ganyan din kaya sya sakin? Youre both lucky for having each other. Im sorry.. Ako yung pumilit sa kanya ikiss ako or else di namin sya papaalisin. The moment he found out na andun ako, gusto nya na agad umalis kasi ayaw ka nya masaktan"

"But he already did, Ish. Sana masaya ka na, no need to wonder kung magiging sweet din sya sayo. Infact, you can try it yourself na. Sayo na sya. Tama na. Magsama kayo. Now, leave me alone.."

Do I really deserve this? What did I do wrong ba? Lahat na ayaw sakin, pati sarili kong heart gusto na mag give up sakin... Pagod na ko, pagod ka na rin heart, rest na tayo pls..

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Spoiler alert: this isnt a love story

Tadaaaaa! Isa po itong series of unfortunate events. Hihi!

P.S. konti lang POVs ni Kief kasi i dont know how manloloko's feel. I dont even know kung meron nga e. Lol