Ashton's POV
Recap - Work called my phone, as she puts my number down for her home phone, and told me she hasn't shown up in 3 days. I assured she was very sick, but would be back tomorrow.
I walk up the stairs calmly, not wanting told scare the girls or Jake or let them know anything was wrong. I knock on my mother's door and wait until I hear her tell me to come in. I then enter the room, closing the door behind me and...
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"Mom?" I ask, looking around the room.
"What now? Can't you see I'm stressed out??" She responds with her usual attitude.
"Work called. They wanted to know why you haven't shown up in 3 days." I said looking at the floor.
"I was taking a break. Moving has been stressful for me to yunno."
"Well, I told them you would be back tomorrow. They need you and we need you to keep your job because I don't have a job right now and even when I get one it won't be enough for the bills and food."
"Whatever. I'll go tomorrow. Get out and go fuck Luke or some shit."
I walk out of the room with my head down, closing the door softly behind me.
I hate that she's like this. She used to be a good mom I guess. We were never really close, but she would never tell me to go fuck my boyfriend.
She wouldn't look at me like that. I'm not a slut. That's more than I can say for her. I'm a virgin still, but she treats me like I'm some slut whoring around town.
She's changed so much. Back before my dad got sick, he worked so she never had to. Back then she wasn't a great mom, but at least she was a mom.
Then she had to get a job and she started smoking and drinking and things just went downhill from there.
She had an affair while my dad was at home living his last days alone. That's where Court came from. The guy still comes around and he has partial custody of her. His name is Evan.
He really is a nice guy and I feel terrible that he had to get caught up with my mother of all people, but I won't let him just have Court. She's my sister to. Maybe not my full sister, but I love her just as much.
He loves her to. When I told him about my mom deciding to just up and move to Australia, and he moved to. He said he would never just take her away from me, but that he won't leave his baby without a mother or a father.
Oh well. That's enough of my boring past. I put on a smile and walk back down the stairs to see Luke sitting on the couch between Sky and Addi who are laughing as he pulls a funny face.
I smile and watch for a minute before entering the room all the way and sitting down on the ground by the couch. I've always liked sitting on the ground. I don't know why. I'm kinda weird.
"Hey." I say as happily as I can manage, turning around to see Luke looking at me with a worried expression. Am I really that obvious?
"Hey babe." He says, knowing I won't talk about it in front of the girls.
"Girls, do you have any homework?" Luke asks.
They both look at the ground with little smirks.
I then send them off to get it done and Luke pulls me up on the couch beside him. I snuggle into his side and rest my head on his chest.
"What's wrong?" He asks calmly.
"It's nothing. Just my mother." I reply, not wanting to set any more of my problems on his shoulders.
"Ashton. I need you to tell me babe."
I let out a sigh before nodding and starting the story.
"So, she hasn't been to work in 3 days and her work called and I told them she'd be there tomorrow. I went into her room to tell her and she was sitting on the ground with a bottle of vodka. But she said she'd go to work tomorrow then she told me to get out and go fuck you. She thinks I'm a slut." I finish.
"I know you're not." He says.
Somehow he knows that the only part of that whole mess that really upset me was how my mom views me.
I don't care that she's a lazy drunk. I can get over that, but when she insults me like that, it hurts.
After that I check on Court, who is, you guessed it, sleeping in her crib.
Then we just sit on the couch curled together in a comfortable silence until I decide the girls need help with their homework.
After that I have to start cooking. Megan is coming over to meet the girls before tomorrow because she agreed to babysit them.
I would have Evan babysit, but he's job hunting right now. The move was a little unexpected. He actually has an interview tomorrow. It's some management position I think, but I'm not to sure.
Again, this guy really is nice. It was just one drunken mess and he ended up with my mother. But it's okay because he got the most beautiful baby in the world out of it.
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Luke and I are sitting on the ground with both girls in a little circle doing homework. "Castle" Luke says as he reads aloud a spelling word to Addi.
"C-A-S-T-L-E" She responds proudly.
After a few more spelling words and a math sheet for each of them, I go to start dinner.
I boil some noodles and grill the chicken. After that I prepare a cheese sauce. I mix everything together and add spinach to the mix. We are left with alfredo.
Luke set the table and I carry the large bowl into the dining room and set it in the middle of the table before calling everyone in.
Megan had arrived while I was cooking and met the twins. They have been showing her their favorite stuffy toys and introducing them all by name for the past 30 minutes.
Megan sat happily, commenting on the beautiful names. Her favorite was the unicorn named Bobert.
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We were all sat at the dinner table laughing and talking. This is my family. The people that make me happy. This is the first time in years I have felt happy. Genuinely happy.
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Fiksi Penggemar"You just can't save me." She would say. "I can try." He whispered as she drifted off to sleep. Her name was Ashton. She suffered from depression since age 8, been cutting since age 10, and starving since age 12. She knew from the beginning she had...
