Divergent: The Outsider 2

|Chapter 29|

Trying for another child? Going through another miscarriage? Being in a state of depression that I thought I would never escape? Negative thoughts run through my mind making my smile falter. I would love to have a child of my-our- own and I would love to come home from a hard day of work to see Tobias on the couch with his feet plopped up on the Ottoman and our curled up on his chest while Tobias watches television or plays a game online with Zeke. 

But then I don't ant to jeopardize our child's life and go through a miscarriage. Thoughts of my dream that I had when I was at home hits me and I look up into Tobias' eyes and there are mixed emotions making it hard to actually wonder what's going through his mind right.  

"A baby?" I question out loud testing the words on my tongue and he nods his head slowly like he is walk on eggshells around me and doesn't want to upset me. 

"Yeah, a little boy or little girl running around our place. A mini you or mini me and we would dress them up to go to school." He says lightly running his fingertips down my face. "We could go to the beach or lake, take family trips." 

All of his words start to actually register and I feel all of my negative thoughts going away, positive thoughts replacing them. I would love to have a child with the man I love, Christina and Will could be the godparents and Zeke and Shauna, Marlene, Uriah, Lynn, Al, Duke, and Amber could be the aunts and uncles. Christina's parents could be the 'grandparents' since my parents wouldn't even care if I got pregnant or not. 

"I would love to have a baby with you." I smile wrapping my arms around his neck kissing the corner of his mouth. "A mini us running around will complete our family and make my dream come true." I say and he smiles and starts kissing all over my face. 

"I will take good care of this baby." I say happily and he smiles and kisses my lips again passionately. 

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"Rise and Shine!" I hear Lynn say sarcastically knocking on the door since we never unlocked it from last night. "We are going to Denny's for breakfast since everyone is too hungover to be around a hot pan and I'm sure as hell not going to cook, Al isn't either. So Four take your di-"

"We're up!" Four groans in the pillow cutting her off and I hear her walking away. 

"Good morning." I say wrapping my arms around his bare torso and he runs his hand through my messy hair kissing my hairline. 

"Morning, how do you feel?" He says referring if I am pregnant yet and I give a chuckle of laughter. 

"I feel fine." I say and he chuckles. "3 times last night was totally unnecessary." I say smiling and he scoffs. 

"Totally necessary." He comments sitting up grabbing me with him walking towards the bathroom and cuts the shower on while we take turns brushing our teeth. Tobias steps into the shower first an I follow suit while we both step under the faucet to get wet. 

"I'm take it that I cant drink the rest of the trip or do anything too extreme." I say and he scoffs nodding his head as he lathers the cloth with body wash and starts washing my shoulders. 

"Hell yeah." He says and then goes down to my very flat abdomen. "Sorry baby, daddy's sorry." Tobias says and I laugh running my fingers through his hair. 

"I don't know if I'm pregnant, it could take several tries until two weeks." I say and he gives a little pout and I start washing my face. "What exactly on the agenda today?" I say as we turn from each other and grab our shampoo and start cleaning ourselves like you are supposed to in the showers. 

"I think Christina wants to go shopping but we are going to spend time on the board walk." He says as we take turns rinsing off under the water and then after we are done we turn the water off and Tobias grabs two towels. 

"Should I tell everyone that we are trying for a baby?" I ask as I dry off and Tobias pulls out the lotion for us to use after drying off. 

"I think we should wait- like, I want them to figure it out." Tobias says rubbing lotion on my shoulders and I nod my head at him. 

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Christina and I swing our hands back and forth as we walk along the board walk. This reminds me of when we went to L.A and we went on the board walk and got those customized shirts, I still have mine and I wear it most of the time when I walk around the house or go out with the gang. 

"So far we've been to ten stores and made two trips to the car, now we are empty handed and walking past the same stores. What is the point of this?" Will says and then starts forming thoughts of course he analyzes everything he sees or touches. 

"I love shopping-" Christina starts with a smile on her face. 

"Trust me, I know." Will says rolling his eyes. I know that sometimes Christina would call me after working at the boutique and would tell me how she went clothes shopping or furniture shopping and how she needs help making more room. She has about three big tubs filled with clothes that I think she need's to donate, she could even put it in the shop. 

"I am starving." Uriah says and I nod my head in agreement, Denny's was great but that was around 10 this morning and now it is nearing 3 in the afternoon. 

"Hmmph." Tobias grunts giving me a 'Ah-ah you are pregnant and we tried for a baby last night' look. I give him the 'It's been less the 48 hours and who know's if i'm pregnant, give it a week or two.' look. He 'replies' with a, 'I can't wait for that long look' and I give him the-

"Are you guys communicating through looks. Bae! Bae! Bae!" 

"WHAT URIAH!" 

"This is the islands, you need to be chill. Anyways we need to learn communication skills through looking like Four and Tris that would be cool." 

"Yeah sure, whatever." 

"What are we doing tonight?" Amber asks as we start to make our way back to the parking lot. 

"I was thinking that we could all do our own thing, like dates or something." Will says scratching the back of his neck. 

"That is wonderful! Perfect idea babe!" Christina squeals and jumps in his arms. That is a good idea, a night in San Salvador with my beautiful husband is what I need right now.