How could I forget?

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(This is the outfit I picture her wearing...)

"Hey, I umm didn't know if you ate or not, but I brought you a plate just in case."

"I haven't, actually. Thanks."

"Do you mind if I sit with you?" He asked me nervously.

"Why are you nervous? I'm not a mean person, Harry. I'm don't bite, scouts honor." I told him jokingly. That got him to smile a bit, which was the plan.

"You sure about that?" He said with a smirk. I was left with my mouth open for a bit. He did not just- oh my God.

"Omg, you did not just-" We both ended up in a laughing fit.

"Sorry, sorry. I just couldn't help it."

"It's fine. That was a good one. Hey, have you seen your mom? Or mine? I need to make sure Danny eats. He's very picky." I tell him, changing the subject.

"Umm yeah. I think it was Gemma that had him."

"Okay, thank. I'll umm, be right back then."

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I was walking back to the table with Danny on my left hip and Mia holding my right arm. I'm not a strong person, not even close, so anyone from a mile away could tell that I was struggling. Frankie was behind me carrying the kid's plate of food. When we finally reached the table I was a little out of breath.

"Woah. You seem like you just ran a mile." Was the first thing Harry had said to me.

"Yeah, well carrying a child that weighs about 26 lbs while wearing 5 1/2 inch heels isn't exactly the easiest thing to do."

"Ari, do you want me to feed Mia? I would've said Danny, but last time I tried he wouldn't budge. It's like he only lets you, mom, and Anne." Frankie  said, interrupting us.

"Yeah, that'd be great Frankie. Thanks. Oh, umm Harry, I don't know if you remember, but this is my brother Frankie. Frankie, I'm sure you remember, Harry." I said introducing them.

"Hi, nice to see you again." Said Harry politely, even putting out his hand to shake.

"Wish I could say the same." Said Frankie dismissively.

"You know, I could umm help Ariana feed her. You can go enjoy yourself. It's no problem."

"Actually, I'd rather do it myself. You can go and enjoy yourself, like you have been these past two years while Ari has been struggling to raise your children. By the way, do you know how much damage you've caused mentally and emotionally?" Frankie said, raising his voice a bit too loudly. I didn't expect him to burst like this. I mean, I know he has a bit of a temper, but to say it all so loudly where basically everyone surrounding us has heard. That I wasn't expecting.

"Frankie, please. Not right now." I begged him.

"If not now then when, Ari? When? You're acting like if he never hurt you. Like if what he did didn't effect this entire family. That's not right. You're letting him in again just so he can hurt you."

"Lower your voice, please. Everyone can hear you. Like I said, we can talk about this later. Just drop it, okay? I'm begging you."

"No, I will not drop it! Let them hear! They deserve to know what this idiot did to you."

I looked around me and noticed everyone's eyes were on us. Anne looked upset and even my mom looked a bit disappointed. I didn't even know what to say, or do.

"You know what, Frankie. Thanks for ruining this for me. Another night ruined. You know, you're being so completely fucking selfish right now, making this about you, like if all of this affected you more then it did me. This is the second time I haven't been able to celebrate MY fucking accomplishments. Thanks for taking that away from me, I hope you're happy." I told him, I them turned my attention to everyone there and said, "You're welcome for the show, enjoy the rest of your night." I passed by my mom and gave her Danny, then I walked into my house, grabbed a coat and left.

I left my own celebration party. I know that's rude to do, but Frankie just had to ruin it. I just wanted one night for myself. I worked my ass off, I deserved a night to relax and celebrate. But now I just feel completely embarrassed. Frankie made a scene in front of my new management. I wouldn't be surprised if they dropped me. I guess I can understand that in some sort of big brother way he was trying to defend me. But that doesn't excuse his childish behavior. I know if I would've stayed there any longer I would have said some things I would've regretted and made a complete fool of myself in front of everyone.

I ended up walking to the park that's somewhat near my house. I always used to go there, just sit on a swing or on a bench and just think. There's something about it that's so calming. Maybe it's the incredible memories I've had here. This is where I made my first friend here in England, this is where I found out I was pregnant, this is where I found out I was having twins, this is where Mia said her first word, and this is the place I realized I had the best mom anyone could ask for.

As I was sitting on a bench, I got so caught up in my thoughts, I didn't hear someone approaching me.

"Hey, babe."

Sorry for the wait (and shortish chapter). I'll update as soon as I can, hope you enjoyed xx

It's so devastating what happened in Paris, tonight. Much love to them. Please please please keep in mind that not all Muslims are terrorist. And that terrorism has no religion. #PrayForParis