Chapter 60

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Alex's POV

Tobin got back late, and with a couple girls. Megan Rapinoe, and Lauren Holiday are back. No one else. Tobin also said she saw Abby and Tyler. 

Tyler. 

Oh how I despise that name, and the face that goes with it. And the person that goes with the face. 

"Tobin?" I call out. Tobin has been getting better. More sane. 

She appears in the doorway. I'm brushing my hair. 

"Yeah Lex?" She asks. 

"Can you braid my hair?" I ask, and I sit on the bed. 

"S-Sure" Tobin smiles, and sits behind me. 

"Thanks" I say. 

"Just like old times 'eh Lex?" Tobin says, and my mind leaps back to what seems like a thousand years go when we were just barely before dating, and I asked Tobin to braid my hair. A tear is in my eye, but I blink it away. I'm not going to cry about the past. 

"Yeah, just like old times" I say, returning to the present. 

She finishes braiding my hair and ties the end. She grabs my hand and takes us to the bathroom, and we stare our reflection in the mirror. Tobin grins. 

"You're gorgeous" She grins, and I blush. 

"Not as beautiful as you" I say, and she smiles. I turn around and wrap my hands around her waist and hiss her neck.

"You are such a flirt" She chuckles, and kisses me back. 

"So I haven't changed?" Smirk, and she gives me a crooked smile. 

"Not as much..." She stares into my eyes. I get the chills. 

Oh, what you do to me Tobin.

"Not as much as who?" I ask, and her expression doesn't change, but I see her eyes do. Like she's in pain. 

"As me" She whispers. 

I hug her, and she squeezes me so I cant breathe, but I don't let go. I don't ever want to let go.  

"I'm sorry I've changed" Tobin whispers. 

"Don't be. We all change sooner or later" I say, and she shrugs, and half her face frowns, while the other half stays slack. 

"But this isn't the change you wanted. I can see it in your eyes" Tobin says, and I stiffen up. 

Have I really given away that much? That I hate watching Tobin go this crazy? As much as I never wanted to admit it, I thought I lost her when she lost her mind. I don't like the thought of her going crazy, but I have to admit that she is. 

"What kind of change do you think I wanted?" I ask, because I don't know what else to say. 

"A change where I'm not the way I am, and we live together and normally. Not like this" She says, and I get a little embarrassed because of how true that is. 

Tobin walks away. 

I want to stop her, but I don't know how, and I don't know what I would say when I do. So instead I turn my phone to bluetooth and get it connected to the small speaker I requested, and then I play music. Again by Fetty Wap. She stops walking away, and a silent sigh escapes me. 

"Is that...music?" She asks. I haven't heard any type of music in so long, and it really is, music to my ears. Its beautiful.

"Yes, it is" I grin. She turns to face me.

Her expression is like a little kid's at Christmas. 

We walk to each other, and the same look in our eyes, that say the same thing. 

We dance, something we haven't done after this terrible war started. 

For once, I feel normal again, and I see Tobin feels the same way. 

We dance around the room, doing funny dance moves and crazy little summersaults on the beds, and then ending up in a funny pose. 

Tobin started to walk toward me, and it was toward the end of the song. She began to back me up, and I hit something solid behind me. I turn my head. The wall. She leans in and bites my lip, and my hands trail up her shirt. 

"Are you mine?" Tobin asked, squeezing my waist. 

"Always" I moan, and she smirks. 

Tobin is starting to get back to normal, thank God. 

Tobin lifts me up, and my legs wrap around her waist, as she carries me to the bed. I smirk as she throws me on the bed, and looks me up and down, in a greedy way. 

"Well?" I ask. 

"Well what?" She asks. 

"Take control" I lick my lips. 

"With pleasure" She smirks. 


Christen's POV

I thought when people said JJ was crazy, that it was an okay kind of crazy. Whats bad is that she's actually crazy, and I feel terrible for it, because I know part of it is my fault. 

I check the clock hanging from the wall. Its almost eleven at night. 

JJ is in bed already, and she's watching me. I know it shouldn't feel creepy, but it kind of does. 

"Everything okay?" I ask, facing her. She just smiles, and shakes her head yes. 

"Sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable" She says. "I just cant believe its actually you" 

"Well its me" I let my hands rest at my side. 

"I'm really thankful for that. I never thought I'd see you again" She smiles at me. 

"I was thinking the same thing" I say, and she drops her gaze to the ground. "Whats wrong?" I ask, sitting on the edge of her bed. 

"Chris, I hate having you see me like this. Its embarrassing for me. I wish I was more stable, so I could provide you the comfort you need" I'm taken back by this. She's noticed I'm a little upset as well. And she's noticed it in that state of mental unpreparedness. 

"JJ, it shouldn't embarrass you" Bite my lip. She has to know the truth about the night I lost her. "Julie, I lost you. I watched you get hurt and fall, and I just stood there, and let myself get taken away. I'm the reason Amy is in a wheelchair, and you're in that mental state" 

I begin to cry. She sits up and holds me close, and I lean into her. 

"It's not your fault. It never was, and never will be" She says. "I began to go crazy all on my own, because you were lost. I couldn't find you, so I brought it on myself" 

"I'm really sorry Julie. I am so damn sorry" I sob into her shoulder, and she kisses my cheek, and wipes away my tears with her thumb. 

"Don't cry Chris" JJ whispers, and I try to stop, and eventually stop.

"Maybe I'm going a little crazy too" I smile, and we cuddle, going to sleep.



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