Broken

Chapter 15: 'I Am Not In Love With.....'

Astrid

Before I knew it I was waking up against Hayden's warm body that enveloped around my cold one. "I thought you would have left by now," I muttered to him as I sat up. "I didn't wanna leave without knowing you were okay, oh and Kerri left your latte," I indicated to the coffee on the side table. I leaned over and took a sip out of the cup. "Well thanks for your concern, you can go now thanks," he nodded and stood up to walk to the door.

"Okay before I go I wanna say what I came here to say," he began. I gestured for him to carry on while still taking sips at my latte. "I think we got off on the wrong foot, and I would like us to start over," I was taken aback by what he was saying to me right now "Okay fine," I placed my coffee on the side table and walked over to him and took out my hand and said "Hi I'm Alana friends call me Ally or Astrid," he shook my hand and replied "Nice to meet you I'm Hayden friends call Hiccup." Well that was easy. "Was that it?" I finished. He was about to say something but then didn't and nodded and left the dorm without another word. I called out to him before he left "Hey Hayden, give Merida a chance I've seen the way she looks at you, she really does love you," with that he nodded and I headed back into my dorm and shutting the door.

I slumped myself back onto my bed and felt this sharp pain pulse through my body and heart. What was wrong with me? I started staring into space; all I could think about was what I just said to him. For some odd reason my heart kept telling me what I said as wrong while my head was saying no that was the right thing to do. Wait a minute is what I'm feeling....no it can't be I am not in love with Hayden Haddock.

Hiccup

"Hey Hayden, give Merida a chance I've seen the way she looks at you, she really does love you," that cut through me like a knife. It hurt real bad but instead of showing that I just nodded at her and carried on walking down the hallway. Why did that hurt so badly? For some reason I wanted to always be around her, but I knew that would never happen. I could still see the hatred she had to me even when I said let's start over.

I had to get this out of my head, so I went and found Jack and the others. "Hey where have you been all day," Jack asked me "Don't worry......hey um Merida can I ask you something," I began to stutter at the last part. She nodded at me and I carried on "Do you wanna go out with me," her eyes lit up like a million fireflies and she flung herself at me screaming yes.

I sat down next to her and wrapped my arm across her shoulder to show I cared for her the way she thought I did. But deep down I knew that I didn't feel the same way for her and even my heart knew it because it was telling me I made the wrong choice while my head was saying the opposite. It couldn't be I did have feelings but it couldn't be now way........there was no way my heart was pulling me towards Alana Winters.