Finding Myself

Vinny

Shay drives me to the church we used to preach at. Everyone knows exactly who I am and they all start embracing me. I walk up to an old friend, his name is Vinny. "Bentornato Hannah. La lotta è solo via di Dio per rendere la vita migliore. Egli ha guidato è sul giusto sentiero della rettitudine." Vinny says smiling at me then hugging me. "Ho manco Hannah sei cresciuta così tanto. Sei ancora bella come il cielo di estate e puzzi ancora di vostre mamme pane appena sfornato." He hugs me again then kisses me on both sides of my face. I look at Tommy who looks jealous. "Questo è Tommy?" He asks with his hand on my waist. I smile and nod. "As we say I'm Italy "Lei è stata mia, prima che fosse mai tuo"," he smiles and looks at me. "What the hell did he say?" Tommy asks after Vinny walks off. "Nothing he was just being friendly," I lie knowing he said "She was mine before she was ever yours." Vinny liked to play mind tricks on people and get under their skin. He was full blood Italian, he could cook clean, yell, and have a way with words. He was a tall guy, slicked back brown hair, nice sized muscles, amazing jaw line, and beautiful beautiful green eyes. GiGi smiled and laughed a little when he said it. We head inside the church and sit down to listen to my dad preach. I'm squished in between Tommy and Vinny, my two best friends. Me and Vinny start talking in Italian about home, how I've been, the fourth grade and just about everything. It's amazing to catch up with him I've missed him a lot. He makes me laugh and then I feel Tommy's hand grip my thigh. I guess it's his way of making me remember I have a boyfriend. I get up to use the bathroom and he follows. He turns me around right when we are out of sight from the church members, "what the heck is all that?" He asks with pure jealousy. "We are just catching up. Babe, don't worry I'm yours," I say grabbing him by his nice dress shirt and pulling him in. He kisses me but it seems like he was still angry. "Now let's get back before my dad notices we are missing." I grab his hand and pull him behind me as we go to sit back down. I look towards GiGi and Shay, Huey aren't talking, they look more mad than ever. I take out my phone and text GiGi. "What's wrong?" "Me and Shay aren't exactly friends or lovers or anything like that. She only fucked me to make you mad and jealous." She responds in an instant. "How can that make me jealous. I could've fucked you any time I wanted." She smiles reading that text and then texts me back. "You still can." I don't smile because I'm thinking to myself. Why am I flirting with her, me and her will never work. She cheated and I tolerate a lot of things but never, never a cheater. I put my hand on Tommy's thigh and he puts his arm around me. We sit there for about two hours just listening to my father go on about the word of God. I guess I have sinned because lust is a sin. I didn't really care because damn did I want Tommy so fucking bad. Finally church is over and we stand up. As we start moving down are rows I feel Vinny's hands on my waist, I hesitate to keep walking. I need him to let me go because I honestly can't let Tommy see this and get mad. I slap Vinny's hands away but he's so close to my ass nobody notices.