Finding Myself

Fucking Live

It was my second week doing community service with Shay and Tommy. My dad told me I'm not allowed to date because lust is a sin. "Hey work the food station for me"? I was distracted by his looks. He was tall, he had dark black hair, freckles, and brown eyes. He was the cutest guy I've ever seen. "Huh"? Tommy looked at me his eyes glistening with the sun shinning over them. "Yeah I will, sure." Tommy noticed I was staring into his eyes and smiles a half grin smile, it's sooo adorable. I walk over to the food station, there's mountains of food. Pizza, Ice Cream, Chicken, Cake, Crab Legs, Shrimp, Spaghetti, I'm serving the rich spoiled families at the Country club. "Hey Banana, cut me off a slice of that cake!" I look up responding with "excuse me"?, it's Shay. Shay looks like a cross between Angelina Jolie and Megan Fox, she's simply... perfect. Her voice is soft and sweet but she can be a loud mouth. Once again I'm distracted. What is she talking about? "Oh yeah," I grab the handle right as she grabs it, "Oh my bad." My eyes meet hers we both giggle and I cut her piece extra big. We finish working within minutes, "This was fun!" Shay smiles, and grabs my hand. "Those people were a bit snobby," I say grabbing my jacket and getting in my 2015 Impala. "Cuss them out give them the fucking bird!" Tommy yells sticking his middle finger out the window and laughing as the rich snobs gasp. I follow their lead and stick my middle finger out the window and smile. I feel like a free spirit, a rebel, and a little....crazy. "Now, where off too beautiful"? Shay looks at me smiling and laughing from too much excitement. "I-I don't know, anywhere I guess." We end up at Shay's house, it smells like strawberries and cream. "Your house is amazing, damn Shay!" Tommy spins around observing the house, "I'm fucking Vagabond, I never stay here." Shay grabs my hand, and spins me around, and dips me. "Wow smooth Shay," she helps me up. "Hey let loose a little fucking live!" Tommy yells and then chugs down what appears to be whiskey. "Take a puff of this," Shay hands me something green rolled in a brown paper. "No I can't, I shouldn't," I take a hit and instantly feel burning in my lunges. Shay and Tommy laugh and pat me on the back, Shay had whispered something in my ear but I didn't hear her. Next thing I knew I am handed a small round pill so I pop it in my mouth and swallow. "What is this"? I try to question them, they laugh. After what feels like minutes of running around and ,screaming and ,skinny dipping I black out. I feel cold then suddenly warm, maybe it's the blood rushing towards my brain.