Finding Myself

Not Right But Wrong

I drive the long hour to GiGi's apartment. Her car is parked out front and her lights are on. By this time it is 9:00 p.m. I walk to the door and knock on it, she answers. Nothing holds back and I throw myself into her arms crying. "Woah. What happened hun?" She asks rubbing my back softly. "I-I'm pregnant! And Tommy doesn't want to keep it!" I blurt out like word vomit. I'm sniffing uncontrollably and my tears are pouring out like a faucet. She grabs my bag and walks me inside. As I sit down I notice what she's wearing. She has on underwear, a sweatshirt, and her hair down and messy. She sits down and I lay on her shoulder still crying. "You what?" She asks sounding surprised. "I-I-I'm pregnant," I sigh. "Do you want to get an abortion?" She asks looking at me. "I guess so." I look back up at her wiping my running mascara. She takes her hand and wipes away the remainder of it. "I'll take you to the clinic tomorrow okay?" She questions me for my approval. "Yeah okay," I say handing her the permission of taking care of me. She tells me to get rest because tomorrow is going to be a long day. When I wake up I get in the shower and get dressed. Like usual GiGi makes breakfast and makes sure I'm eating every bit of it. When I'm ready we head to the clinic and pay for everything. Next thing I know I'm in the room ready for the procedure with needles in and all. I wake up feeling horrible, like a piece of me is missing. I just want to go home. GiGi carries me out of the clinic and puts me in the car. When we get home GiGi makes me food. Gosh she's amazing, doing all this for me. I honestly owe her for everything she has done for me. When we're done eating we go to her room and lay down. I'm laying on her, looking up,saying nothing. She smiles at me and bites her lip. Then I bite mine and laugh a little. I feel her tongue lick my top lip and she smiles. She's warm, her legs wrapped around me, face shinning bright. My hand goes up her thigh, it's smoother than silk. Her lips brush against mine slowly then she tugs at my bottom lip softly. She's such a fucking tease. She gets up leaving me on the bed alone. I get up looking at her sweet smile. I'm standing right in her face at this point and keep stepping towards me. "If you want me come get me," she says teasing me with every move. I back her against the wall and lean in. She kisses me honestly better than ever or anyone has. We kiss as she grabs my waist aggressively, then turns and puts me against the wall. I turn her back against the wall and lift her up against it. What's come out of me? I've never been this sexual towards another girl. I honestly think I may just be gay. Who cares that it's wrong fuck with my parents think. It's worth it she's my girlfriend. I'm surprised my parents don't worry about me. Well I see why, they think I'm with Tommy, Shay, and GiGi so they assume I'm safe. Then I see it, my moms text. "Hope you're alright. This is dad, moms sick, it looks bad." I look at my phone as GiGi kisses down my neck. She's already in her bra and underwear at this point clawing me down. "Shit," I say locking my phone. GiGi stops kissing me, "What?" She asks me. "My mom is sick," I bellow. I start getting dressed and so does GiGi. We are moving I guess faster then we ever have. We take GiGi's car and speed off to my parents house. Then we pull up to the same old house I've been in for two years.