Finding Myself

Court

I get ready for Vinny's sentence in jail. After all he deserves life in prison. I sit in the passenger seat of  Shay's car. I am startled by flashing lights and wake up, we're here. There are many paparazzi's taking pictures and news casts asking questions. I walk into the court empty assuming I'll leave that way. I walk to the table where my lawyer sits and he asks me to be seated so I do as asked. "This case is in session," says the judge before I even notice. "Lee, you may start," the judge says motioning to my lawyer. I zone out most of the case not caring to hear Vinny's lies. The only thing I hear is him say "she was asking for it." I hate him. That dick deep throating, lying, scum bag said I was asking for it? How can a girl ask to be pinned down against her will and forced to have sex with someone? Nobody in the right mind would even do that. "Ms.FitzGerald would you please come to the stand?" I am asked by my own lawyer. I stand up and walk over to the stand and seat myself. "Ms.FitzGerald, did Mr.Gambino or did he not throw himself at you and you repeatedly said no?" "He did," I respond to my lawyer.  "How long have you known him?" "Since fifth grade." "Did he ever stalk you or have you ever filed a restraining order against him?" "Yes when I was 16 he stalked me but I was willing to drop it," I say feeling myself already choking "What did he do Ms.FitzGerald during the day of church?" "He grabbed my butt and kissed me and-" I break down and cry. It was just too much to handle. I look at Tommy he looks so hurt. "I rest my case," my lawyer says. I space out for a minute then look at Vinny who is in a wheelchair. He looks mad, like he could kill me at this point. When I zone back in I hear "We find the defendant Mr. Vincent Gambino guilty for rape/sexual assault." After the final hit of the judges gavel everyone stands and starts walking out the court room. I happen to walk past Vinny. He gives a slick smile and kisses at me. I keep walking and zoom straight pass Tommy, GiGi, and my parents. I run to the nearest female bathroom. I bust the stall open and blow chunks. I feel warm hands on my back running for comfort. I glance up and see GiGi. "Hey sugar, why are you so sick?" GiGi brings it up. "I-I don't kno-" I am interrupted by the disgusting chunky liquid spraying out of my mouth. "Maybe you have a stomach bug. I want you to go to the doctors when we get home tonight and get it checked out, okay?" She asks continuing to rub my back. I think I'm done blowing chunks so I get up. This lasted for about 10 minutes. "Okay, I will." I walk to the mirror and wash out my mouth and splash water in my face. "You know he got 21 years in prison?" GiGi looks at me and sits on the counter asking the dumb question bringing up the man. "Yeah, sure," I lie because I was actually zoning the sentence out. Gigi looks me in the eyes, "You good B?" She asks, looking deep in them. "Mhmm," I say in response, I hate lying to her. Her hand caresses my soft face slowly. She kisses me. I don't want to fight this one but I do and push myself back. I'm still very close to her face, looking her in the eyes, no words interrupting the silence. I lean in, quicker than my brain thinks it and kiss her. I think I was just caught up in the moment. I truthfully think I'm bisexual though...... I don't know how to come out to my parents. With my dad being a godly man and my mom believing in the bible all the time I set myself up for failure. I exit the bathroom at a fast pace not looking back at GiGi and whatever we just did. Tommy walks me to the car, blocking the press and photographers. We get in the car and he starts talking. "You didn't have to be here you know?" He asks. I just nod my head and look out the window.