Finding Myself

In the car

"Oh my gosh, B what happened?" GiGi and my mom run over, then it happens. In slow motion I collapse jerking, and moving all around. Why? Why would Tommy do this, he said he's in love with me. I want them off this trip this instant. Shay was all over me that night, she didn't hesitate to cuss Tommy out when he even tried to utter a single word to me. Gosh I'm so stupid why would I even think they liked me, I'm just so conceited. I open my eyes, I'm back in the car driving through what looks like the country. I realize that Shay is no longer next to me she is in the back with Tommy. "You had another episode honey," GiGi says rubbing my back. "It's not real. It didn't happen. It was a dream," I say. "No Bambi, it happened, it's real." GiGi puts  her hand on my back comfortingly rubs back and fourth. "What happened?" GiGi looks concerned. (Flashback) "Did he do this to you?" I say. "You need to report this," I stand up. "I promise he will be brung to justice and charged. He can't get away with this it's not right!" I can feel the anger, my face getting hotter. Her boyfriend, Gabriel, he raped her. "I told him to stop and that I wasn't ready , but he just kept going. I tried screaming, then he said if I do that he will kill me." GiGi looks up at me crying. Gabriel is still in jail and doesn't get out till next month on the thirteenth. "B you're freaking scaring me what the heck happened back there?" GiGi looks scared, I could faintly hear the sound of her heart pounding in her chest. "N-Nothing, just another seizure," I lied I didn't want GiGi to get mad and for Tommy and Shay to get sent home, after all they don't have rides home. They may deserve to go home but I can't do that. Maybe it was a mistake, maybe Tommy and Shay were high and weren't thinking right. Maybe I'm getting too into them. God I have to thank GiGi she's been so nice and comforting, that's why she's been my best friend forever even when we lost contact, she found a way to make it known she thinks about me. My phone goes off, I have a new text message from GiGi. It reads "I know you're lying B." "Fine, Tommy kissed Shay... In the gas station." She takes a moment to respond then looks at me. "I'm so sorry," she whispers. It takes seconds maybe even minutes for it to register to me that she even apologized. "It's fine," I say just looking out the window. "I just want to move on and get this trip over with." I sigh still gazing out the window.