Finding Myself

The Party

After we calm down I manage to get the swelling down on my lip and clean my nose and hand up. We decide we can still make it to the party and I give Gi a moment to fix her makeup. We get in the car and neither of us dare to break the silence. When we drive up to the house lights are everywhere and there's a lot of college kids and I start to have second thoughts. Gi grabs my hand and looks at me "It's going to be fun," she giggles. She explains to me she brought the weed and we could just go smoke upstairs. We make are way through the over sexually active sweaty teens into the house. Then I spot someone I wish I hadn't, Gabriel. Gabriel is the guy that raped GiGi a while ago and we turned him in. He was dancing with some underaged girl pressed up against her. We make eye contact for a sec then I grab Gi's arm. "We need to leave," I whisper in her ear. "Let's stay for a minute," she persuades me into staying. I give in and follow her to the kitchen. We grab us some beers and head upstairs. I really wish I didn't see him. How'd he even get in here isn't he registered as a sex offender? What the hell? We walk into the nearest bedroom not ready to see what we did. We walk in on some kids making out. They were like 15 so we tell them to leave and they do. We sit on the bed and I start opening and drinking beers. I haven't drunken since my birthday and I'm still underaged. Gi is only two months older than me. I think within those couple of hours I've already had one too many beers. We decide to go back downstairs to refill on beers. I get caught up talking to an old friend from college named Kevin. I look over to the beers where GiGi is and see Gabriel. He's all pressed against her ass and she's pushing him off. "Get off me!" I hear her yell. I run over to him and sock him straight in the face. I'm not thinking clearly. I grab his shirt and don't stop punching him. I hear Gi yelling "Stop! Stop! You're going to kill him!" Then I look back down and see his bloody mashed up face. Gi grabs me off of him and pulls me back. A light or two flash then I fall slowly to the ground moving violently. "Baby!" Gi yells getting on her knees next to me. I feel her cold hands try to keep my face straight. It takes me longer to wake up from this seizure. I look up and I'm still on the floor but with a pillow under my head and people circled around me. GiGi is crying and looking at me. She hadn't drunken anything tonight she's always been the responsible one. She helps me up slowly and tells me to take some meds she had with her. They had my name on them and there were like three different pills. 1. For my depression 1. For my anxiety and 1. That controls my epilepsy. She tells me to go to the car but as in walking I see Gabriel on the couch with blood all over his face. He lets out a groan and covers his face. I finally get enough of it then walk to the car and get in. The car ride home is not so silent Gi is mainly making sure I'm okay and making sure he didn't touch me in any way.