Finding Myself

I Can Handle Myself

We walk inside and head to the room. "What the hell were you thinking?" She looks at me with a deadly feel. "I couldn't just let him be all over my girlfriend. So I had to make sure he didn't touch you again," I say sitting on the bed. "He could have fucking killed you B!" She yells moving her hands about. "It would have been worth it if it meant saving you!" I yell back. "Then I wouldn't have you B! I can't fucking live without you!" She yells at me more then punches the wall. "I can handle myself!" She yells at me before I could even say what I had to say. Suddenly, the argument stops and I'm in awe. She can handle herself? I've been making sure she doesn't get hurt again since day one, but she can handle herself? I walk out of the room not saying anything else and slam the door. I walk into the kitchen and grab the bottle of Fireball she already had open and pour me a glass. I don't have a chaser I just drink it straight and feel the acid burn my throat. I continue to drink it for maybe an hour. Gi finally walks out the room. I start to chug it making sure she's looking at me. "What the fuck B!" She snatched the bottle from my hand staring at me scared. I try to stand up and fall to my knees GiGi just looks down at me. I grip the back of her thigh holding onto her for dear life while the room spins in slow motion. She grabs my hand and moves it from her thigh and walks away silently and goes to the room. It feels like I can't breath and my chest is caving in. I start dry heaving nonstop so I take off to the bathroom. I don't throw up I just sit there next to the toilet for hours. I wake up in the same spot it's 6:00 a.m. Me and Gi haven't uttered a single word to each other since yesterday night. She goes to the store and buys some groceries including more Fireball. She goes to the kitchen and starts making dinner. She tells me she's making her famous burgers from scratch. "Watch the food I need to take a smoke," she says grabbing her rolling paper and "special" weed. I nod my head and walk pass the door noticing she's on her phone. I put my ear to the door to listen. "Yeah she's drinking again. I wish she would just stop. I didn't mean what I said. I think I'll talk to her tonight," Gi says. I know I'm wrong for spying on her but it was the only way to know what's going on with her. I walk to the kitchen and flip the burger over. She walks back inside her eyes weren't red they were a little pink though. I walk over to her when she's at the stove making the last burger. I put my arms around her and start kissing on her neck. Knowing her she turns around every time including this one. She puts the spatula down and puts one hand on the back of my neck and her other arm around it. My hands grip her ass and she stops kissing me for a second. "I have to finish cooking okay?" She questions me wanting more of me. "Fine," I say slapping her ass before I walk away. I lick my lips and all the flavor a hit me, mango, blueberry, and pineapple. It's all the flavor of her favorite weed rolled in one blunt. It honestly tasted like the best thing ever other than her if you catch my drift. She tasted way better maybe it's because she ate a lot of pineapple.